Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Jumping Back In.

So back in school. I have my classes basically from Tuesday through Thursday since I have a therapy art class on wed. Other then that my official classes are on Tuesday and Thursday. English and creative writing were today and I felt so happy to see my lovely mentor/teacher Kim Culbertson. She is a published author of two books and I would highly recommend her.
She is a lovely person who is helping me through this difficult writing experience. So anywho, yeah today was great.
I need to pick a book to read for a personal at home read and with this this nifty new device that has amazon kindle on it I can download and read books. One that im starting to get into is "Diary of a Psychic" which is just so intriguing.
So that's what's up. Tootles!

Monday, August 29, 2011

New Phone!

So at the moment I am using the droid 3 to post this! I am so happy with it!  You can expect some video diaries soon since I basically have a mini computer + camcorder. I have a face time camera so I can watch my self as I film. And take weight loss pictures.

Monday Weigh In

So, today was weigh in
And
the
weight
was
*drumroll*
210!!
I HAVE LOST 16LBS ALL TOGETHER AND 3.5 LBS THIS WEEK!!
ohemgee you have no idea how happy I am to hear that!! Just last night I kicking my ass, calling myself fat, loser, blob. And woke up depressed cause of bad dreams and bad sleep (I slept better on a blow up mattress in the woods) so I thought, might as well just weigh in.
I guess you do get rewarded for being good.
And all that swimming probably didn't hurt.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

LET'S GET READY TO RUMBLE!!

Time to beat myself over the head with a mallet! Yay! A spectacle that you can all enjoy!! So I didn't gain nor loose anything last week so that should be motivation to stay on track and keep going right? Wrong.
Between Pie and Ice Cream for breakfast and KFC for dinner today was a bad day to be on a diet. This isn't just weight loss, it's detoxing and relapsing. It's an addiction, it really is! I always knew that people had food addictions, and like drugs or alcohol some people need help in getting off of it. And when I say people I say me.
Sure there's those fancy weight loss camps that if your rich you can truck your fat ass off to and get skinny and that's all fine and great. Good for you! But for those of us who don't have the time or money well rehab is just not an option, and yes I know the people who go there have emotional problems and need counseling and stuff. And I have no problem with them really I don't! I find it inspirational when they loose all the weight but.... I'm only 16, I don't have the resources, time, or money to hike my fat ass to a nice rehab center where they take the crap away and help me ease into the healthy lane. I have to do it myself.
There are no pills
There are no shots
I can walk into a grocery store, I don't need to find a drug dealer
I don't need to go to a bar
I don't need to be a certain age
We can go anywhere and get food see food
It's not illegal to eat food
Food is the cheapest, safest, and easiest addiction to obtain.
Comparatively.
I don't think people realize that. They look at someone over weight and write them off as lazy and sloppy. I watched Taboo about Sizes I believe. They said a survey showed that people are completely sexist of fat people. They look at pictures of overweight men and say things such as "Cuddly, warm, sweet," and see a woman and say "Lazy, Slob, Ugly"
I guess I'm just ranting since I'm angry at myself.
And I'm finally admitting to, Yes I have a problem. I'm addicted to food.
I read about thinking before eating. Rather then just compulsively eating. And I've found that I fight myself.
"I don't need it,"
"I shouldn't be eating this,"
"I should just do the smaller order,"
"Just eat half"
Then my other half says
"C'mon it's just a little,"
"You deserve it,"
"You've been good,"
"You'll just burn it off when you go for your walk,"

Yeah it's bad. Like I said it's an addiction. I want my hit, I give excuses to get my figurative "high" then I regret it. Although I haven't found myself eating because of emotion, I just want it. Although I could be, it's a possibility. I usually eat out of boredom.
So that's my ranting for today.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Bitch Week!

Yep it's that time again! I'm actually glad that it is, I only weighed myself like 2 days ago? Which means I was already bloating. I know that's an excuse for not loosing weight in the last two weeks but hey, we all make excuses right? So that's that, I'm finally making a come back with my walking, I got started late last night so I didn't go the full mile maybe half. But today I did a whole!! It was a lot harder getting back into the swing of things. EatingS been under control but I have been getting HELLA CRAVINGS at night. I didn't really think about it then realized that it's THE WEEK.
So I hope there are no guys reading this and cringing but hey it happens.

Hocus Pocus

Why are they showing that movie in August? I don't really know since we have 2 1/2 months until Halloween. Oh well I love it just the same. But I never knew that MCGEE WAS IN THE MOVIE!! Yeah, NCIS fan here. Sorry. But yeah he's the little ghost boy.
I was freaking out about it at like 10:30 last night. My dog thought I was going insane.
So anywho I have something that I've been obsessing over. And that is the WDWCP and the DLCP. What do these random letters stand for?
WhatDoWackyCaterpillarsPlay? DoLovelyCatsPray? No no no.
Walt Disney World College Program and the Disneyland College Program.
I've been obsessing over these two since.... 06? Yeah around that time. And I am so excited to go! Just a little over half a year!! OMG!!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Running and Chickens

So first order of business on this second post of the day was running. I saw a poster today for the 9/11 5k run. I think I know what my aim is for next year. My birthday is Sept 17th so that's my 18th birthday wish (next year) is to walk it. Hopefully. Maybe even jog some. I mean I have a whole year to do it so you never know! I could be a runner by then but ya never know!! So that's for running and the next order is.

Chickens
Now I really want to educate people on this.
I had a lot of questions during the fair about the different kinds of birds.
Now take your standard Buff Orpington
This is a normal everyday chicken, now this is not the same thing as a Cornish Meat Hen. These typically are what I like to call "Pet" chickens or egg laying chickens. They eat bugs and lay eggs and well are for the most part friendly. We do NOT eat these. At least most people don't unless they are the main source of food. Other chickens like this either lay eggs or are show chickens. And for the most part are not eaten.
Now these chickens are meat chickens, they are grown for meat. They are genetically made to be meat chickens, they only live for a few months, if their lucky a year. When they grow to a certain age they need to be butchered, and I mean NEED to be butchered. They begin to break down, their feathers begin to fall out, they get sores, bruises, and eventually their organs begin to shut down. The next time you go to bite into warm crispy piece of fried chicken, don't think "Oh poor chicken, I wonder how it felt to get your head chopped off!" rather think about how miserable life would be for it if it naturally lived out it's life. Falling apart slowly and painfully.
So many people were asking about why/if we chop up beautiful chickens when really we don't. We keep these and they eventually die of naturally causes.
Just a little info if you've ever wondered where your chicken meat comes from.

Poof out Your Chest and get Ready for a Fight!

Have you ever walked into a store or restaurant and you know no one there and all of a sudden some skinny little beotch starts whipping you looks? Well that happened to me today. I don't know if she thought I was someone else or what but she was looking me up and down and like... rolling her eyes and she kept staring at me like I had done something to her. I don't know what the fudge was up with her. My mom said she was just jealous that she had no tits and I did. Well whatever he problem was.... well screw her. But why I was in the store was because my mom was having a problem with her contacts, they weren't transfered right so we went in. And instead of getting the little starter smart phone I'm getting.
*drumroll*
The new Droid 3!
face time chat whatever, apps, HD camera, yeah. I wasn't planning on it, didn't ask for it but I'm getting it and I'm actually really excited!! I'm not the kind of girl who lives on her phone, so I was fine with living with my frustratingly crap phone for a few months until my upgrade. My mom was asking me a few months back whether or not I wanted a new phone in the store. I told her no since we don't have the money and the phone still made calls so I was fine. The salesman told me he was impressed and how he saw a lot of brats come in who were my age screaming, yelling, pitching fits until they got their phone. I really don't get that. It's a phone for gods sakes. So yeah wait and luck will find you!
The phones were buy one get one free, my mom bought one for my dad and gave me the free one, it was only 140.00 for both and when we send my brother and dads old phone in? We get 100.00 per phone. They're paying us 60 bucks to take the phones basically.... when you dont ask, don't beg, don't pitch a fit you will be rewarded!
So anyways I'm going to try to do my walk today after dinner. Might post a little info post later.
Bye

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Finally I've Weighted in

And....
Well....
I....
Have not lost or gained any weight!! In hindsight.... it's what been three weeks since I last weighted in? So I think like my mom said, I gained weight then burnt it all off. So officially? I'm back on path.... again. Officially this time. Another post'll be later. I think. Bye Bye!!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Not Getting Enough Water?

I've found a solution that works for me. Instead of just having one glass that you have designated and for me going through a hella lot of ice, I have two water bottles. Smart Water bottles. I fill two up and stick them in the fridge at night and I have one in the morning (and most the day) then one during the afternoon. Then when they're finished, not only have i had a lot of water *according to my bottles 14 OZ combined* that was cool and cold just the way I like it but I now I have some for the next day since I fill them and stick them in the fridge. and the best part? I don't have to worry about going to town with an open glass.

Shatness

So my healing knee was healing well until I fell on it yesterday, now it hurts like a  mother! I twisted my ankle on uneven sidewalk and fell onto my bad knee cause I was tumbling over. Of course instead of a railing or fence to balance on I had a bush filled with some kind of fallen leaves and a lamp post about a foot behind me.
Shit it hurt so much. But the worst pain of it all? Not being able to go on my walks. I'm now down and out. All I can do is sit ups, leg lifts, push ups, ect.
It now looks like a swollen mess. I've been elevating and icing but I think I ripped some scar tissue. It didn't hurt but then again it was in the area where I have my nerve damage numb stop from the surgery. But I was a good girl eating wise today I well I saw something pretty inspirational today. I was writing my coupons out with E! news on behind me. When I heard about this girl who lost 50 pounds and won the Junior Miss California pageant. It inspired me cause I look the way she used to and need to loose about the same amount of weight. Now I'm not going to run out and enter a pageant when I loose my weight but still I think it was really cool.
So that's it for today. Hopefully I can start walking again soon.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Bad Little Blogger

yeah.
Well anywho I was a bad girl yesterday and well most of the week, I drank soda!! Nooo!! Other then that I've been good. And I've started writing and drawing again, and I've gotten back into all of the schooliness. I'll be taking a college prep course and I need to do some research, other then that my math class for this year is "Personal Finance" so yay!! No stupid slow moving ickyness!!
So yeah just a little bit for now.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Not Monday but it's Musical!! (and a rip off XD)

Heyo everyone!!
Fat Girl in a Skinny World
Losing For Good
One Girl One Goal

These lovely ladies gave me the bug!!
So it ain't monday but hell I read it today so stfu.
This last week has been  A HELLA LONG FRIGGIN ASS WORKOFFY AHFDFSHGFG
Yeah it was crazy, I'm finally back in the groove! My mom and I went to the lake again to drop my grandmother off cause she had surgery, and well we stayed the night. It was so NICE without a dad and siblings. You have no idea!! It was so quiet! Its not that I don't want to go to the lake again I just don't want to go with my SIBLINGS! God I am in such an anti sibling mood today.
So enough about my problems lets get onto the MUSIC!!
I have a large variety of songs that I like to listen to. Most of them have nice beats to them and some of them just remind me of wanting to run and look badass (i.e. Sucker Punch soundtrack)
SO HERE DEH ARRRRRE!!

White Rabbit - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: So this makes me want to look like an action hero and run and like fight and shoot zombies and shit. I heart it.

Tomorrow Never Knows - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Another kick ass song from the kick ass Sucker Punch movie

Rolling in the Deep - Adele: I LOVE THIS SONG because of the beat, it is so nice to have something that you can feel as your feet hit the ground.

Telephone - Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce: Another nice "beaty" song that is fun to walk with

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga: "Beaty" song

Born this Way - Lady Gaga: Not only does it have a wonderful beat but it also is so uplifting when your working out. I WAS BORN THIS WAY BITCHES!!

Evacuate the Dance Floor - Cascada: One of my first singer loves when I was little Cascada just makes me want to DANCE!!

Mambo No. 5 - Lou Bega: I'm a swing dance lover and this just also makes me want to dance, oddly enough my songs make me want to dance while I walk XD

Strip Me - Natasha Bedingfield: Just another great uplifting song

Sweet Dreams - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Another sucker punch epicness

Teeth - Lady Gaga: Lady Gaga's songs are always beaty because of them being made for clubing music while I use it to walk with

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry: of course you can't work out without Katy!!

Ain't no Other Man - Christina Aguilera: Another swinging song

Candyman - Christina Augilera: Yes again ^^^

Check Yes Juliet - We the Kings: I love this, what I call "High School" genre. Cute lovey dovey young stuff. I mean cmon I am a teen ^.^

Forever and Always - Taylor Swift: Can't have High School genre without TayTay!!

Army of Me - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Yes I love this song it's so sexy... someone mentioned on twitter that it reminded them of like a stripper song and really... it is.

United States of Pop 2009 - DJ Earworm: This mix is AMAZING!! I love this it reminds me of anime and I love to just have fun with this song

So What - P!nk: Can't have awesome workout without p!nk!!

U + Ur Hand - P!nk: ^^^^

Rumor has it - Adele: Another rockin Adele song with a heavy beat

Misery Business - Paramore: I love this song with a passion, just is kick ass

Crush Crush Crush - Paramore: ^^^^

Sticks and Stones - The Pierces: I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song, it's a really cool indy song that I like to call my supernatural song (no not the show) since it's like about vampires and witches and stuff.

Inner Universe - Yoko Kanno: This is a Japanese song, I got it from Ghost in a Shell series. Yoko's voice is so beautiful though I like to listen to her a lot.

Rise - Yoko Kanno: another Yoko Song

So yeah that's like what 26? Oh well I love them all!!

On another note that is basically totally unrelated I was watching The Soup. The one show other then Conan that I watch to laugh my ass off. They had something on Kelley Osborn and Christina Aguilera getting into and the guy they found on the interwebs was SO FUNNY!!

"Nothing raises a bitches eye brow more than one fat bitch calling another fat bitch a fat bitch! You know how they say sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you? Bitch thats a MotherF@ckin lie!"

Yeah I laughed my ass off!!








Sunday, August 14, 2011

Okay

I believe I've finally gotten back on track.
I've been eating things that are not just fat or carbs, that mixed with all the leg breaking exercise I've been getting should be okay.
I will be detoxing with soda, when I drink soda I totally swell up! What I need to do it restrict my soda intake to one or two days a week. I'm feeling better about myself and what I've been eating and I think I'm finally done with my mental self mutilation. 

Saturday, August 13, 2011

My New Freaking Awesomesauce Nerdy Poster

Yeah I bought a poster today.
And it's freaking GORGEOUS!!
Well to my nerdy little mind is.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Oh Fudgenuts

I've probably used that title before but I'm really stuck here!!
I'm in my first rut I think. I'm feeling really shitty right now cause I saw myself in a picture and I feel like I see myself there then I look in the mirror and.... they don't match. I know I'm not skinny and I know I'm fat but I look at myself in pictures and think... "I'm not that fat.... am I?" then I start beating myself up.
"I'm so freaking fat"
"I look like a seal"
"Who would ever think I'm attractive"
"I don't want to go out in public until I actually look okay"
"I want to curl up and die"

Yeah that was about it today. Beating myself up all day. My mom talking to me trying to make me feel better but I keep being a selfish little beotch.
Yeah I need to do some positive visualization and get back on track.

I want to be

SKINNY BY GRADUATION

Oh my Freaking.... EVERYTHING!

Okay okay I'm being over dramatic! I'm actually feeling pretty good for how much I've been walking to working. It's the.... second day but really third for us. Only problem? With all this work out that we're doing we're filling up all those calories burnt with sugary and fatty treats. I'm quitting when I'm full and although we are for the most part eating healthy most of the day I still feel like I'm cheating. I'm gonna have to work twice as hard no matter how much my knee screams at me.
uuuugh I feel like I'm never gonna do good and loose this weight!! >.<

Monday, August 8, 2011

I HAVE HAD A REVELATION!!

I WANT TO GO TO RENAISSANCE FAIRS!!! OMFG AND DRESS UP!!
So I also want to do anime cons but for right now with my area and being with my parents and their, well not disprovable just uncomfortableness with anime, and the fact that they also are into that kind of thing and I want to get sewing. It's all good!! And yay corsets!!!! OF course the last time we tried making a kind of corset we failed and it began to unclip and fall off. So this time I want to buy one or use my moms older one. I also want to make my own dress and get back into sewing. I'll start drawing up some designs and all and I'm excited now and I would love to throw myself into making the dress. I would maybe possibly like to do crafty jewelery which I've been wanting to do so.... this would really put everything together. Yeah that is something I just thought of and I'm really excited to pitch this idea to my mom.
I only have like a year left here in this state and in high school.... well maybe a year and half so I have to get my ass going.

Holy NutMufflers Batman

I feel like total shit right now.
I went for my walk which was fine talked with my mom came back, and had to weigh our birds. Well for some idiotic reason the fair has a 5lb limit on the meat chickens. I have no idea why. They sell them after the judging so basically these people are getting boney shitty meat. Our birds are plump and happy and meaty. But the smallest ones are 6lbs.... I freaking hate that. I hope our scale is hella off so we can get our skuze deh french F@CKING money back.
And add to that my Hopeless Romantic trait rearing it's ugly head with what happened earlier today. And of course some other personal shit I feel icky. And sore.
The other thing? I feel huge. For the last two days I could swear I'm gaining weight not loosing it. I don't think I'm going to weigh in this week, not just because I'm scared witless of my weight but also cause I'm going to walk my ass off at the fair and also I'm not going to have any time!!
So yeah thats my rant for this post.

Is This What a Broken Heart Feels Like?

Okay okay I'm being over dramatic. I saw the guy I have a major crush on today.
Holding the hand of a short skinny long haired chick.
Yeah I think I went through the five stages of grief in like 2.5 minutes.
"No that's not him" "Shit that is him"
"Why didn't I ask him out earlier!"
"Maybe it's a short thing?"
"My heart hurts"
"Aw it's okay I signed up for this shit when I fell"

So yeah I guess I am now more then ever motivated to loose this weight and show him what he's missing.
I'm not angry at him just more at me though cause I knew I was being an idiot. For the first time I thought he was in my range, someone who I could maybe possibly be with. Unlike those unaprochable guys with a shitty attitude.
Part of me thinks he just entered my life for me to realize how I really wanted to be seen as pretty and try to do good for myself. Either way fate has a path and whatever happens happens for a reason.

Chocolate Cake

French Chocolate Cake that is
Today was the practice run with the cake and I think it came out magnificently, of course I do need to tweak it a little here and there. Figure out how to mix the flour better and put it in the smaller tin the bake. I took some pictures while I was making it. So here:






Sunday, August 7, 2011

Wow

Let me be the first to say holy shiznips where the hell did the weekend go?!
It totally freaking came and went without me realizing it.
And I haven't even been able to practice my chocolate cake for the fair contest.
I'll have to do that tomorrow.
So I've been eating a lot of junk lately which is not good.
I've been under my calorie limit and not over eating but still I don't like that all I'm eating it pizza and fried chicken. But I have been working my ass off I walked to mile today in 15 minutes ON THE DOT.
For me that's amazing. I just need to do it under 12 and I will be happy! Hell I never thought it would take me this quick to do it in 15.
Yeah that's whats up lately.
I'm watching the first Transformers movie and I forgot how much I loved these.
The newest one isn't the best. About halfway through it and onto the end I liked the new one but the beginning sucked.
I love the first two movies though.
Just had to say.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Back on the Track

Yaaaay! So I went for a walk today and it was awesome and afterwards I got to track how long the walk actually is. It's actually 8/10ths of a mile! Almost a full mile! And that's just the first loop if I took the long loop *which I will eventually do* I can do a mile and 1/3...? Roughly. I'm able to go through the first loop almost mile in 20 minutes. I would like to be able to eventually jog it and maybe run it so I can get it under 15 minutes. I always ran the mile in school and I was always the slowest *and fatest, sweatiest, ect.* and I would love to basically shove it up my old fat ass and show myself that it isn't impossible and that I can beat all those skinny girl's asses.
So anywho yeah that's what happened today and I hope I can eventually run a mile. That would be freaking awesome.
Hope you all are having a wonderful beginning to your weekend! Tootles

Today Is Hard Head day!!

TODAY IS THE DAY I GET BACK ON TRACK FROM A TWO DAY SLUMP!!
Yes I'm going to try to eat as healthy as possible.
And walk my ass off tonight. Because of the fair We've been having to get ready and its been derailing me.
On another non related story I refuse to start drinking skim milk or non fat milk. It's like drinking milky water. And I'm not a chronic milk addict either. I drink it once in a while when I eat something too rich and it washes it down. Or when I eat something too spicy. Yeah I'll continue to enjoy my whole milk thank you very much.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Stupid Stupid Stupid

For the past two days I've been cheating. I've been eating too much, well MFP says I'm in the green still and these little half assed workouts are not enough for my body.
I keep getting home after dark and the way people drive around my neighborhood is crazy. I know if I go out I'll probably be smeared across the road. So instead I've been doing a little bit of Calisthenics.
Tomorrow I might walk twice as far or maybe tape bricks to my feet XD.
That's whats up.
I'm a bad bad girl >.<

Beautify and Identify

So yesterday I put my hair up in some half-assed Victory Rolls and well I think it turned out well! I did it at the last moment before leaving so I wasn't able to take a picture and when I got back my hair wasn't as glorious as it had started.
How come I start all my posts with so? That's weird....
So I am well on my way I keep visualizing my weight loss line on the wii fit going in a steady down wards slant. That's how I stay motivated. But today I will have to work my ass off. I will have to probably do two different sets of my workout. This suckssss.
I hope I can loose a bit of weight and physically look that way by Halloween!
I'm being a FEMash from Pokemon and I don't want to look like a huge ass blob in Ash garb. So hopefully I can physically look nice in a Halloween costume this time.
I can't remember which blog I was reading but there was a post about how she felt after loosing the weight. How she felt feminine again. And how when she was a fat she felt like a sexless blob. I feel the same way every day. I know I'm a girl. I want to feel like a girl but I don't feel it now. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Happiness and Carelessness

So today was awesome finding out I lost 1.5 lbs.
With that I like to celebrate maybe with a candy bar or a soda.
But what did I get?
All of that muliplied by two and a dinner and KFC. Yeah I was bad. Although My Fitness Pal says that after the little work out I did do I am still in the green I'm still really disappointed in myself about this.
 I have to work my ass off for the next few days and watch what I eat. I want a consistent down wards arrow on my wii fit.
Awesome though is that my mom lost 1.8 lbs.
Another thing is I'll be at the fair next week with my chickens and art so I'll be burning calories hiking around there. But what also comes with the fair is fair food. My weakness! Fried shit covered in more fried shit and sugar! Ice Cream, Onion Rings, Cotton Candy, Funnel Cakes, Tacos, and other stuff that makes me go yum and my tummy grow.
One last piece of news is I WILL FINALLY BE GETTING A NEW PHONE!! So I got my current phone almost two years ago and well it totally sucks. You can put it on a flat surface and hear it click through options. I can barely text with it and I can't even make calls all the time.
Yaaaay Smart Phone
So this is the phone I am more then likely going to go with.

Weigh in Wednesday

So I weighed in today along with my whole family. My mom and I have both solidly lost 1.5 lbs!! Yay!!
My mom and I have been walking together for the past week and I have for the past three weeks. I am now the lowest weight I've been in a long long time. I can see myself in the 100s by the end of August. Hopefully! Maybe that's a little too much to loose but...
I CAN DO IT!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Harry Potter

WHAAAAAA! Yeah I saw the last movie. What describes it the best? Epic. Yeah that was awesome!! I loved it! I did almost cry. It was right there!! Almost! But they didn't break so that was good cause I would feel kind of stupid lololol! It's only my childhood dying. That's all.
Anywho I watched it it was awesome and everthang.
AND WE GOT TO SEE THE SHERLOCK HOLMES TRAILER OMG I AM SO FRICKING EXCITED!!
I have a huge obsession with Robert Downy Jr.
So yeah.
That's that.
Lets hope that tomorrow I won't find out that I am back to my main weight lololol that would suck since the movie was my weight loss reward.
I haven't eaten anything but sour patch and it's 5pm.
Tootles!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Show me Your Teeth!

So it's bitch week again!!
Yep it's the bloating, irritability, cramps, and cravings!!
Wednesday is weigh in day and well.... I know either way I am more then likely going to have gained something.
I have been so spastic in my eating today. the whole sweet and salty pull and tug. I'm kind of excited for weigh in. I feel lighter. Maybe I won't have gained weight? *pleasepleaseplease!!* wishful thinking. I should maybe do a little more exercise tonight. Maybe a little bit more calisthenics.  Oh and I found some... Whey Fiber mix thing? I'm going to maybe try some. Maybe it will help with my legs and tummy.
I woke up at 8am with my hip and knee screaming. It hurt so much. But what did I do? Like and idiot ignore it and try to fall back to sleep. I have like an aversion to waking up early!! I'm like an addict to sleep and when I can get to it I loose all logic and thought of getting up early. >.<

FMM

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section at: www.alltheweigh.com any my blog so we can all see your FMM questions and answers.  Please invite your blog readers to add their links there too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!



FMM: Girly Questions
1) Do you like to shop? I looooove to shop!! I always loved it but when I grew bewbz I wouldn't fit in anything. But now I know how to find things and dress my body and I'm losing weight so I feel a lot better now.

2) How often do you wear makeup? Every day, well almost every day. If I'm going out I do but if I stay in I most likely won't do it. But I love experimenting with different shades and styles.

3) How do you feel about nail polish?I love nail polish! I have pink with glitter on right now!! I don't have a lot of shades though but I want more.
4) Do you consider yourself to be a feminist? Kind of? I'm a very strong willed girl and think that I like to make my own decisions. 

5)  What’s your biggest challenge as a woman? Hmmmm. Have a period I guess XD. I think I really like being a woman and there is nothing gender specific that is challenging to me.

6) Do you wear skirts and dresses? I Love them!! I don't have a lot of daily dresses but I want some cute flowey summer dresses. 
7) How do you feel about high heels? I love them! I see a recurring theme here lol. I think heels are amazing and beautiful!! The different sizes and shapes and colors!! But right now with my knee surgery I can't wear them :(

8.)  Do you subscribe to magazines? If so, which ones?  Yeah, I subscribe to Teen Vogue which I need to finish paying for.

9) Do you shave your legs/wax/ use depilatory creams or go au naturale? EW! of course I shave my legs and armpits. Ewwwww. Hair.

10) What do you like most about being a woman? I love everything about it!! I love the physical and the mental things about being a woman.