Sunday, October 30, 2011

Just a Bit and Some Evanescnce

Just a little news, I worked out finally today again. Other than that I ate well and worked for Dr. Mortis. Another thing is the fact that I almost fainted from not drinking enough water. Crazy thing is I had a dream of fainting last night so that was weird.
Anywho here's Evanescence day 21, 22, and 23 since I missed yesterday and I probably won't get on tomorrow because of Halloween and homework. UGH!!

Farther Away - Evanescence Fan Video
IDK if I did this already but here's Good Enough Official Video from Evanescence
Of course I saved the best for last, Sweet Sacrafice by Evanescence Official Video, this is perfect for Halloween Enjoy!!


Friday, October 28, 2011

Weigh In

So you know how I was talking about expecting to gain? Well I did, but you know what? I'm not torn up about it. I'm up 4.4 which sucks. But I think because I was expecting to gain it wasn't a big deal. Of course it's disappointing but I know I didn't do well and four days of exercise when I should have done 6 and drinking soda again totally helped the gain. But that just means I'm going to have to work harder. And no more soda!!

Evanescence day 19 and 20
Where Will you Go Fan Video
Official Video of What You Want by Evanescence one of the most recent releases.


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Broke Ass

And not just money wise. My butt hurts!! From ridding mah bike. Yay I worked out today and I ate right!! Finally! Now lets see if we can keep this up, especially for the next few days which at the time i'm usually working out I'll be at the haunted house doing make up. I rode 6 miles today though, and tomorrow is weigh in. I not looking forward to it. I look bigger today and feel bigger today which sucks, but I'm bracing for the + sign, I hope OH I HOPE it will be - but I won't be completely destroyed if its a +. I think that's why I gave up last time, I had been doing so well then out of the blue I gained three then four then five pounds.
Ugh I hope tomorrow will start off good with a loss!!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Good Workout and PAINTS!

If you don't already know I'm an art student and always will be. But today I finally got my paints!! I have two canvases and some obscure colored painted but I went and got the "rainbow" colors and some glitter!! Yay!! I'm going to pain tonight maybe but when I finish it I'll scan it and show everyone!!
In other news I had a GREAT workout today but my eating.... sucked. It's like when I'm hungry and craving stuff it's like my mind goes blank. Lately I've been working towards fitting into this dress I own from my 8th grade graduation. It's really beautiful and timeless but I don't fit it. If I can't get the dress for my CDC then my goal will be to fir into that again.
I kicked ass with my workout today, I biked for 30-40 minutes then walked for another 20 then did my Bowflex for 10 minutes. That was good.
This is also my 100th post...
IDK WHAT TO DO!! I wish I could do a giveaway but I don't have anything and if I did I don't have the money to cover postage.
soooo.... OH
Does anyone want to get a picture done for them? I'm not too good with life like or animals but I can do some nifty stuff... I don't know if anyone would be interested but yeah that's all I can do lolololol.

Anywho Evanescence day 18
Your Star by Evanescence Fan Video



Don't get all excited, but my brother and sister were offered by a modeling company to go to their studio (of course). My dream is to model but I NEVER thought I could, now that I'm loosing weight I thought it might be something for the future.
My sister (bless her heart) asked if I could come to their "try out" or whatever it's called,  probably to indulge my little sister the lady said I could come, she also probably didn't think I was 206lbs. Another thing is my sister said their company works on the show "Shake it Up" for Disney. That's when my mood changed on the subject. They work with Disney?!
I wish I was farther along in my weight loss journey so I could at least have a chance at showing them what I've got. They'll probably take one look at me and go "She's got a pretty face, but she's not exactly what we're looking for," ya know in the way they talk like you're not in the room. But at least hire my brother or sister!! Modeling for Disney would be great for them and hopefully maybe great for me down the line.
I don't know what to expect on Saturday. Of course if it's near 4 I won't be going because of my Haunted House duty.
Can I just go off and fantasize for a minute?
Can I just pretend like it will go on like a dream and happen like I want it too?
We will walk in and they will see all three of us together and hire us on the spot. We will then be whisked off to LA where we'll get our pictures taken and sent to Disney who will like us so much that they call us before we walk out the door of the studios. They'll hire us for a new sitcom or something and we'll get our paycheck immediately and become famous and have a great Christmas and pay my grandmother off and our debt and whatever and live happily ever after, right RIGHT?! Then I will get hired to do movies for Disney after college. 
I wish.
Oh I didn't work out today again.... I know
Evanescence day 17
Snow White Queen


Monday, October 24, 2011

Holy Nut Muffins!!

I kicked my ass today. Really really kicked my ass. I biked for like 40-45 minutes up hill and down hill. It hurt so much!! But I did it and I drank water only after drinking soda for two days straight. I'm a little puffy but I know I worked hard today and ate right. So I think we're back on track. I'm wearing a dress today, I always was too uncomfortable to wear it and I bought it like a year or two ago yet I never wore it out in public. Tonight I actually will.
Sorry I didn't post the Evanescence Video yesterday. I was just too out of it.
In other news I found that I do want to run a 5K.
The 5K of my choice?
I've been hearing about this for like months now but I never really thought about doing it. But I watched videos of it today and I thought "Hell! I can do that!!"
For those who don't know, it's basically a 5K with obstacles mixed with capture the flag football. You get I think 4-5 flags that you wear around your waist and run from zombies, all while throwing yourself through chain link fences and over hay bales.
Yes I said zombies.
If your flags run out you are "dead" but if you make it to the end with at least one flag you are "alive" idk if you get a prize if you survive but they had at the end a "Dead" or "Alive" side, it may be to see how many people survived but whatever.
If you guys have any suggestions on how to train for it I would be grateful hehehe!!
Here's the day 16 and 17

Cloud Nine by Evanescence

Weight of the World by Evanescence. I'm not sure if I've already done this.


Sunday, October 23, 2011


I need to kick my ass tomorrow. I missed exercise AGAIN today, I woke up went to my class thing, then went to the hospital since my dad broke his toe. Now I'm home and it's 9pm and I don't feel good. You know when you're eating healthy and all then all of a sudden you start eating bad stuff and you just don't feel good ya know?
Well that's how I feel.
I need to get back on track tomorrow. I lost a lot  this week so I need to loose some more! I can't stop now!! Tomorrow is work my fat ass off, I'm think about a full hour on the bike and a half an hour on the bowflex. We'll see. Oh and the freaking homework ugh!!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Lazy Day

Oh where is my water!!
I had soda for the first time and weeks and by the end of the day I wanted my water back!!
We went to Claim Jumpers for lunch, It was so good!! I ate till I was full then we went to WalMart and then to JoAnns. We went to Sonic where I ate mozzarella sticks and had a Sonic milkshake thing or whatever. So yeah I ate a lot today but I also was on my feet most of the time. Tommorrow I'm going to have to kick my ass after the Haunted House "briefing" and movies WE'RE GOING TO SEE REAL STEAL YAAAAY!!
Day 15 of Evanescence month
Lacramosa by Evanescence


Friday, October 21, 2011

Christmas Dress Update and Weigh In

If you haven't noticed already I have updated my weight tracker.
Today I weighed in at 206.7.
IS THAT CRAZAY OR WHAT?! I knew I was kicking my ass but I didn't know by that much?!
I've lost 3.3 lbs this week!!
I am so happy!!
I am currently at the lowest I've been in a VERY long time.
I'm also out of the teens!! Only 7lbs to go then I will hopefully *crosses fingers* be in the 190 range!!

I guess I should do what I set out to do in this post.
Christmas Dress Update!!
I think what really contributed to my weight loss for the past few weeks is the whole I'm-not-drinking-soda-like-it's-water thing. My household runs on Coke and for me personally Fanta Orange. But I haven't had any!! There have been major withdrawal moments where all I want is a can of orange soda but I've had to settle with... well water.
So That means the water part of the challenge is going awesome.

I exercise 6 days a week
I have been under (for the most part, yes I have gone over like twice I think) my caloric intake
and I've only had water, and maybe some milk here and there.

I've also noticed the tank tops and jeans I've been wearing are really loose.
That's all for now!
Here is Day 14 of Evanescence Month!!
A Fan video of Evanescence's Breath No More


Thursday, October 20, 2011


I am obsessed with it.
Have you ever seen the show "Extreme Sweepers" or something like that?
Now I don't want to make a career out of it or something but I just want to see if it's real ya know?
I want to see if I can ACTUALLY win something for once.
I entered a lot today.
It started with the Teen Vogue site's Win It section.
I entered yesterday.
Then today I just got this itch to enter to win stuff, with my luck though? I probably won't win but that doesn't mean I should loose hope!! Ya know what gives me hope?
This guy
By the way, here's Evanescence day 13!
Fan Video of My Last Breath by Evanescence

Yeah. Good workout.
Oh and I have a new tab, it's called My Story. I finally got around to making it. I'll try to get some pics up but for now its like I barfed raw emotion all over it. So yeah. You can see it here

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Oh My Sweety Pie

Today I think I was a bad girl.
I mean I slacked on working out for some reason. Grrr.
Of course it's BITCH WEEK again.
I mean wtf?! It's been like two weeks since the last one. Oh whatever.
But tomorrow is going to be work my ass off day. Possibly doing biking and walking both.
Let's hope *fingercross*
Oh well.
Here's day 12 of Evanescence

Evanescence's Missing unofficial video


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day 11 and WINNING

I AM DOING IT for the first time!! I won Amethyst's contest for the 2012 Llewellyn Herbal Almanac and a mug!! This is perfect for fall and winter because I LOVE tea. I used to hate it but about three years ago I started to love it. It's also my main replacement for soda. Which is great.
On another note, WE GOT MY KITTEN TODAY!!  Little baby Jinxy!! Like from Warehouse 13. He's 6 weeks old and adorable. I'll post pictures when I get to uploading it.
Anyway day 11 for Evanescence month!!
Another unofficial video of Hello by Evanescence


Monday, October 17, 2011

BowFlex Update and All this Stuff

I've gone up 5lbs from my previous amount of weight, I went from 25 to 30 which is awesome, I'm still only doing 40 lbs on the resisted sit ups and my lower back has been killing me all day.
For dinner I made Shrimp stir fry, shrimp, pea pods (idk what kind), green beans, and mushrooms in a garlic sesame sauce. It tasted like take out from some family owned Chinese restaurant!! I know how to make some kind of Asian dish now!!
In other news... well there's not much other news.... hmmm. OH I have no school this week! Yay!! So yeah that's about it. Oh and Evanescence day 10.

This is Lithium by Evanescence. Another great official video by Evanescence, you need to watch it.


Sunday, October 16, 2011

Christmas Dress, Old Shorts, and Art Tour

A very very good day today.
I woke up at like 10 or so, ate got dressed and there is where the first good thing happened. It was hot today (Thank got it's not in the 90s but for fall it was hot out) so I was looking for shorts. I couldn't find my shorts so I looked in this pile of sweatshirts. I found an old pair of shorts. I don't know what possessed me to put them on but I did. I wasn't even thinking. I just wanted shorts! These shorts haven't fit me in years. I haven't looked at the tag so I don't know what size they are. But it was an amazing feeling. No shimmying, no sucking in, no stuffing. Just sliding in and zipping up. It was amazing. I bounced around my room. I left the house feeling awesome. I also ate right and well that leads me to my next subject which is the Art Tour. All today we went around our town to different studios, talked to people, I had an assignment to interview three artists and take pictures. Well we went to about 6 different places one of them featuring around 10 artists by itself. In all we saw about 24 artists today. It was so much fun and it really solidified my decision of being an art student. I think, when you can't imagine why someone wouldn't want to do what you do, is when you know you are in the right place. I also finally have ideas for what I want for Christmas. Because of limited funds we have to put things on layaway now for Christmas that way we can HAVE a Christmas.
And that brings us to The Christmas Dress Update, with the shorts thing I think it's going really well. I mean I've at least dropped a size in shorts so how is the rest of me going? Plus my tops are looser so yeah good good.

And for day 8 and 9!! (Ya see what happens is I open up a new post and go to write and sometimes write a little something then close it and think I post it so whatev.)

This is Before the Dawn which is from Evanescence's first album I believe. Enjoy!!

This is Lies which is another from their first albums. These also aren't official videos either so yeah.


Friday, October 14, 2011

Weigh in!!

The Wii must be broken cause it says my weight is 210. wtf. BUT DUDE!! BACK TO MY WEIGHT LOSS NESS!! OMG!! I'm not complaining. I have been working my big ass off this week. Like really really hard. Now I can actually have breakfast.
Now for the 7th day of Evanescence month
This is just an unofficial video since this song doesn't have a music video. Just some photos people put togeather but go ahead and listen to the music!!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Falling Alseep

So let's make this short a sweet
Happy 5th and 6th day *since I missed yesterday* of Evanescence month!!

Call me When You're Sober by Evanescence
Good Enough By Evanescence (beautiful video!)


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Eat More Chocolate, Have Less Strokes

Yeah I saw this on this mornings news that said women who ate more chocolate were less likely to have a stroke. Hahahaha I like it.
Anywho today was intense workout day. I biked at least two miles, but most of it was uphill. It was gradual and it sucked but I felt really accomplished by the end and was able to fly down the other side. I only got off once to walk my bike up the hill. Then after I walked a half a mile afterwards. Needless to say I was sweaty after and I did a few minutes on the bowflex after. I really hope this is all paying off. I'll be weighing in on Friday so it will be a whole week. *fingers crossed*
Other than that I had an awesome day at school, had fun. I also finished my math which is awesome. All my teachers liked my hair, said I looked very Rosie Riveter which was cool since that was what I was going for. So all in all a good day!!

Day Four of Evanescence Month with My Immortal

Monday, October 10, 2011

Day Three!!

Of Evanescence month!! Yay! So before that I guess I should recap my day. I started out waking up at noon, as usual since last night I turned everything off at 9:30 and did fall asleep until 1 FREAKING AM!! God I try to get to sleep early but what happens? My brain doesn't shut off!! So yeah, hopefully tonight I'll go to sleep! Other than that it's raining so no bike ride and I'm forbidden from my treadmill by my doctor because of my knee. So onto the BowFlex I went and had a nice workout. Thank God for that thing or I would be stuck on the floor doing normal sit ups and shit. So yay!!
Anything else.... nope think that's it.
Onto the music!!

Day three I present Bring Me To Life

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Oh Boy!

I feel so happy today!! I worked my ass off today!! Isn't this always how it is? You start out and you feel awesome? Like a honeymoon period of a workout plan. But anywho I found out I can ride a bike!! I am so happy! I can finally go fast again! Since I can't run. It was so nice to feel the breeze and fly by the places I used to huff past on foot. I got to fight up the small hill, it was so funny, since I was out in public and my brother was riding in front of me I was huffing and puffing up the hill, making myself not get off and walk it up and saying (quietly and partly in my head) "For all those people who think you can't do it, to show people I'm not just a fat ass who eats hohos and watches tv all day, for all those skinny bitches who look at me like I'm lower than them, to all those shirts that don't fit!" and I got up it and got to fly down the other side. The best part of riding a bike. After about a half hour of that I got to get on my BowFlex and do that for a half an hour. So a solid hour of workout today and controlled eating.
I like this because after all the dreading and sadness of gaining I can finally get back to the real deal.
So after that it is the end of the workout segment and onto
Presenting Everybody's Fool by Evanescence

Stitch by Nicki!

So this is a fabulous giveaway by Stitch By Nicki of whom I found through Poison. You can follow the Poison link to the rules of the giveaway! Check out Nicki's facebook page above and see all of her adorable crafts!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

31 I Mean 23 Days of Evanescence

I came up with this a few days ago, I wish I had done it earlier so I could do a full 31 days, but since I didn't here are 23 days of my favorite band of all time.
I've loved Evanescence since like 9.... maybe 10 years old.
The band is an Alternative Gothic genre so, in the spirit of Halloween I thought I'd post the videos and songs of, in my opinion, the best band on earth.
But before that though today was my second day on the bowflex and I think it was great today. I think what happened yesterday was that I wasn't into it very much, I was still not eating right (I had like seven pieces of bacon, yeah I know) so I just didn't have a good workout. But today I felt it, it was a good workout and I could feel my muscles working. So yeah that was nice and I started eating right again. YAY FOR STARTING GOOD!!
And now here is Going Under by Evanescence kicking off day one!!

Friday, October 7, 2011

Got my Ass Kicked by an Inanimate Object

Okay not that much.
Arm wise it was quite a workout, stomach... not so much. I think when I get better and have better form I will burn it more but for now it was a good start.
I didn't put much effort either so hopefully it's not going to be as disappointing as it seems today.

Other than that I didn't do much, but I did do something though....
I did *gulp* before pictures!!
Find them Here


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Yummy yummy in Mah Tummy

So I made dinner tonight, I didn't use a recipe I just basically made it up as I went along. I made Corn and Mushroom...mix or something, I don't know what to call it. And I made a Chicken, tomato and bacon idk what to call it. Here I took pictures.

Chicken in the pan

Mushrooms and Corn

End plate

So yeah that's what was for dinner tonight!! In other news, I went to the doctors, good news my knee is doing fine. bad news: my weight is 221lbs. Good news also though I'm in Bitch week (yeah last week was a flook or something, according to my doctor I'm still "developing and regulating" so basically it means Bitch week can be three days or two weeks. FUN RIGHT?! So that means bloating, bigger boobs and well that one little present.
But other than that, I haven't gotten back up to where I was originally which means I'm not completely starting over. All in all I good day.

Yeah So that's about it!!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

OOhhhhmmmmm.... OOhhhhmmmmm...

I'm trying not to freak out.
I haven't exercised in God knows how long and I have to get weighed at my doctors appointment. Oh dear lawdy. I think I'm more disappointed in myself about not finding the time to exercise, I know I have been using our completely hectic scheduled but really I should be trying harder.   I just need to take a few breaths, relax and plan. Tomorrow night I might be able to finally get on that bowflex and use it, if not Friday is the day I plan on doing it. This weekend is *knock on wood* freed up so I hope this is the time to start again.

In Christmas Dress Challenge, well I bet you can guess how that's going. I don't want to give up, I want to look good in that dress but I don't think that I'll be able to do it by Christmas!!

In good news I have October break coming up in two weeks, what does that mean? I have free range to work out as much as I can. So once again let's take a few OOOOHHHHMMMMM moments.
There we go.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011


No not before photos I haven't even gotten there yet today. But I do have some stuff from the Celtic Festival!! So sit back and enjoy.
My sister loves horses, and love is an understatement. These are the Painted Ladies I believe.

Me and my sister at the Celtic Festival, I don't know why I look so depressed though lol I was so happy!

Shopping Day!!

Gosh I am so proud of my mom and I!!
We go on a huge shopping trip every month for food. Now usually we go and whatever we see that we like we pick up and throw it in the cart, I think this is why our eating has been so bad cause we say "Oh that looks good! Throw it in the cart! Oh yeah totally lets get that!" Then we get home with mostly just snacks rather than real meals and they end up being mostly junk.
But today we planned meals on the way down, I got a cool new app on my phone just called Recipes and I believe it's by or some site like that. You can look up recipes and then create a checklist of the ingredients you need to buy. So I have two dinners lined up and got the ingredients. Then other than that I bought some Fiber One + Antioxidants Yogurt Berry something-or-other. Tea for sleeping better, tomorrow is start over day and I am hella ready.
Our shopping cart to car to fridge is stocked with fresh veggies and healthy grains.
I'm excited and had an awesome day. Tomorrow I'll try out the bowflex and maybe take some before pictures.
SO all in all a great start to a new beginning/rebirth lololololol.


Sunday, October 2, 2011

I Have the Best Bloodlines EVER!!

So the main parts of my heritage are Irish and Italian (of course naturally beefy people right ugh!) and today instead of going camping for my birthday we went to the Celtic Festival!! I've been talking about this for the past few days. We finished my outfit today and I wore it, I'll try and find the cord to download the photos from my camera since it has run away and I can't find it.
It was amazing there, the people, the atmosphere, the food, the music, everything was WONDERFUL!! I had so much fun I got to get a fairy blessing and placed a wish on the tree for the fairies to take and make true!
I totally believe in fairies I'm kind of like those crazy alien believers but cooler.
But anyways I had an amazing time, if you haven't heard of the Young Dubliners you suck cause their awesome and I just saw them in concert cause they were playing at the festival. They were amazing and if I find the cord I'll upload some of their awesome songs that they played.
It was pretty awesome.
In other awesome news we got our bowflex today!! OH I'M SO HAPPY!! Of course I might not get to use it till fricken Friday since I will be thrown into another hectic week. But I'm totally pumped for it. If I have time I'll set it up and watch maybe part of the dvd or read the workouts or whatever. I'm pondering whether or not to write down my progression with it on here. I read an article thing on ehow for beginners with bowflex and how you should record each session so that later on you can watch your progress. I might as well post posts about them and then have a page recording my progress. I might also be changing formats/layout so if things change on my page don't panic.
That is the awesomesauce shiz that has happened.