I've Got a Bad Romance!

With bread!
I've been craving bread SO hard lately! But with regular sandwiches I've kept it pretty much under control. Of course my dad brought home doughnuts! Not his fault though cause I haven't really announced my gluten freeness. I was able only to take a little bite and put down the bready goodness without binging. For breakfast I had Special K cerial with a colby jack cheese stick and half a vitamin water and now I'm chewing gum to keep me over until "lunch" which should be around 3 since I've been having trouble sleeping and I got up at noon AGAIN!
It'll be hard but I have to reset my clock.
Another change is I will physically write down my calories and watch them as eat. It's gonna suck but I really have to do it this time.
Yesterday was a great day though, I watched my food and I think I did really good along with a little work out at the end with my sister.
I really hope my feelings are right about this year for my weight loss and life in general. I hope there will be a big change.

Awesome Day

I had an awesome day today, I got to feel the love from my two teachers. I had come out of the bathroom at school and they were telling eachother that
"Cassie is awesome!" now I was totally oblivious cause there's another girl named Cassie but then they called me over and told me that I was awesome and talented and what not and it was the best feeling ever for me. It was crazy and I was so honored to have people think of me like that. Then I had to do like a review of people's stories in creative writing, two stories actually and so the two I was reviewing reviewed mine and each others. They liked my work, that was so amazing for me cause I just thought my mom and teacher like it, that's in no one outside of my little bubble will like it blah blah blah but they did! Someone I barely knew liked my work!! Yay!! I know that being an author is what I'm meant to do and the haters can hate but there are some that like my work!! Yay!!

Sorry Sorry Sorry!!

To all those who are visiting I probably just totally botched my first impression which is why I'm writing this sorry note. Weight loss is a pain in the ass but that doesn't give me the right to totally blow up. I have a tendency of exploding with anger, sadness, pain, happiness, and excitement without thinking before doing so. Writing and drawing is my main outlet for these emotions and sometimes I don't know when to hold back and when to let it out. So again I'm sorry for my cursing and bad attitude, it's so weird how a number on a scale can get me so pissed! And after thinking about it for a bit I realized that it really wasn't that much compared to all that I've lost. I just need to work twice as hard to loose this weight.
Once more I am sorry and I will be more positive and try not to blow up.

Bad Little Blogger

yeah.
Well anywho I was a bad girl yesterday and well most of the week, I drank soda!! Nooo!! Other then that I've been good. And I've started writing and drawing again, and I've gotten back into all of the schooliness. I'll be taking a college prep course and I need to do some research, other then that my math class for this year is "Personal Finance" so yay!! No stupid slow moving ickyness!!
So yeah just a little bit for now.

You Blog?

Yeah I can hardly believe it either. Usually I start something like a blog, or a story (speaking of story....) or a comic and days or even hours after starting it I just drift away and well, never really think about it again. But this time. I'm a blogger!! If you had told me a year ago I would hold onto a blog and not "forget" about it or be too lazy to do it I would of said "That would be nice" and secretly giggling inside.
I love blogging I love writing and I love decorating and making things look pretty!! My blog is like a little place that I can decorate with out having to pay or have the skills to make something!!
And not to mention how much it is helping me on my weight loss.

I thought I would just start a little witchy blog about me my life and tarot but now I have two (really three but the other one flopped and sucks) that I love to death and want to keep nice and new. It doesn't really matter to me how many watchers I have or how many comments I get it just matters that I have a tool that lets me vent when I need to and celebrate when I need to!!
Another thing I have this for is helping me write out everything!! I think this will help me get back on track with my writing. Speaking of writing this summer has flown past and I haven't talked to my teacher for creative writing which is a no no for me!! Anywho that's what I had to say here and now and on to contacting my teacher!! Yikes!!