I'm Baaaaack

Hey all!
I am soooo sorry I've been MIA lately! As I think I posted before my computer crashed. I thought it was going to be a simple fix but instead I had to go through the insurance process to get a new one. Yep new computer!! So here I am again!!
I guess I should update a little. Last time a weighted in I was 206 again!! That was a loss of 3lbs I think the week i weighed in so that is good.
I've changed my plan again, I think for the better. Before I was overeating then being like "Oh well let's just go work my ass off" well that would just balance my weight out or not even help it. Now I'm working out a min of 3 times a week and I've added some new little things to my workouts. Because of the weather and the winter coming I haven't been able to get out and ride or walk so instead on Sundays we're going to the horses and I'll ride there.
Now you might think "Riding a horse? HA! That's not a workout!" well then I say HA to you! and another HA! Because my thighs and stomach muscles hurt like HELL for three days afterwards! You have to grip with your legs and keep yourself up with her stomach muscles. At the time you won't notice it but afterwards you will.
Another thing is AirAligned
What is this you ask? Fist off I did my first lesson on Monday and my whole body still hurts today ON FRIDAY!!
Second here is the basics, I've only learned the first three moves she does (except I was able to touch the ground and I wasn't up in the air yet)

Of course to my favorite band Evanescence.
But this is working your WHOLE DAMN BODY! You're basically lifting your body weight into the air which for me means hoisting 206 lbs into the air by my arms or legs. Yeah it's intense but its HELLA FUN!! I've always wanted to do gymnastics but I always thought I was way too fat and I have no upper body strength. But I joined this because I have two friends from school who help and participate in the class and my little sister is in it too.
It's really fun but REALLY rare at least I think...
Of course all the other girls other than my friends who are average height and weight, are like 90lbs soaking wet and have been doing this for a little while. Great. Little girls in leotards and me.... yeah but its not competitive, the girls are really nice so far and there is no judgment. Over these last few weeks I realized that even if I get dirty look from people who think I'm to fat to workout or whatever they think (I mean really why would you think like that?!) I find that I'm there for myself not them and I am there to loose weight. So screw them and their negative thoughts and feelings. I'm here to make myself better not to make them happy.
So that's all for now
Tootles,

Weigh In

So you know how I was talking about expecting to gain? Well I did, but you know what? I'm not torn up about it. I'm up 4.4 which sucks. But I think because I was expecting to gain it wasn't a big deal. Of course it's disappointing but I know I didn't do well and four days of exercise when I should have done 6 and drinking soda again totally helped the gain. But that just means I'm going to have to work harder. And no more soda!!
Ugh.

Evanescence day 19 and 20

Where Will you Go Fan Video

Official Video of What You Want by Evanescence one of the most recent releases.

tootles,

Good Workout and PAINTS!

If you don't already know I'm an art student and always will be. But today I finally got my paints!! I have two canvases and some obscure colored painted but I went and got the "rainbow" colors and some glitter!! Yay!! I'm going to pain tonight maybe but when I finish it I'll scan it and show everyone!!
In other news I had a GREAT workout today but my eating.... sucked. It's like when I'm hungry and craving stuff it's like my mind goes blank. Lately I've been working towards fitting into this dress I own from my 8th grade graduation. It's really beautiful and timeless but I don't fit it. If I can't get the dress for my CDC then my goal will be to fir into that again.
I kicked ass with my workout today, I biked for 30-40 minutes then walked for another 20 then did my Bowflex for 10 minutes. That was good.
This is also my 100th post...
IDK WHAT TO DO!! I wish I could do a giveaway but I don't have anything and if I did I don't have the money to cover postage.
soooo.... OH
Does anyone want to get a picture done for them? I'm not too good with life like or animals but I can do some nifty stuff... I don't know if anyone would be interested but yeah that's all I can do lolololol.

Anywho Evanescence day 18

Your Star by Evanescence Fan Video

Tootles,

Modeling?

Don't get all excited, but my brother and sister were offered by a modeling company to go to their studio (of course). My dream is to model but I NEVER thought I could, now that I'm loosing weight I thought it might be something for the future.
My sister (bless her heart) asked if I could come to their "try out" or whatever it's called,  probably to indulge my little sister the lady said I could come, she also probably didn't think I was 206lbs. Another thing is my sister said their company works on the show "Shake it Up" for Disney. That's when my mood changed on the subject. They work with Disney?!
I wish I was farther along in my weight loss journey so I could at least have a chance at showing them what I've got. They'll probably take one look at me and go "She's got a pretty face, but she's not exactly what we're looking for," ya know in the way they talk like you're not in the room. But at least hire my brother or sister!! Modeling for Disney would be great for them and hopefully maybe great for me down the line.
I don't know what to expect on Saturday. Of course if it's near 4 I won't be going because of my Haunted House duty.
Can I just go off and fantasize for a minute?
Can I just pretend like it will go on like a dream and happen like I want it too?
Okay
We will walk in and they will see all three of us together and hire us on the spot. We will then be whisked off to LA where we'll get our pictures taken and sent to Disney who will like us so much that they call us before we walk out the door of the studios. They'll hire us for a new sitcom or something and we'll get our paycheck immediately and become famous and have a great Christmas and pay my grandmother off and our debt and whatever and live happily ever after, right RIGHT?! Then I will get hired to do movies for Disney after college. 
Yeah.
I wish.
Oh I didn't work out today again.... I know
Evanescence day 17

Snow White Queen

Tootles,

Lazy Day

Oh where is my water!!
I had soda for the first time and weeks and by the end of the day I wanted my water back!!
We went to Claim Jumpers for lunch, It was so good!! I ate till I was full then we went to WalMart and then to JoAnns. We went to Sonic where I ate mozzarella sticks and had a Sonic milkshake thing or whatever. So yeah I ate a lot today but I also was on my feet most of the time. Tommorrow I'm going to have to kick my ass after the Haunted House "briefing" and movies WE'RE GOING TO SEE REAL STEAL YAAAAY!!
Anywho
Day 15 of Evanescence month

Lacramosa by Evanescence

Tootles,

Christmas Dress Update and Weigh In

If you haven't noticed already I have updated my weight tracker.
Today I weighed in at 206.7.
IS THAT CRAZAY OR WHAT?! I knew I was kicking my ass but I didn't know by that much?!
I've lost 3.3 lbs this week!!
I am so happy!!
I am currently at the lowest I've been in a VERY long time.
I'm also out of the teens!! Only 7lbs to go then I will hopefully *crosses fingers* be in the 190 range!!

I guess I should do what I set out to do in this post.
Christmas Dress Update!!
I think what really contributed to my weight loss for the past few weeks is the whole I'm-not-drinking-soda-like-it's-water thing. My household runs on Coke and for me personally Fanta Orange. But I haven't had any!! There have been major withdrawal moments where all I want is a can of orange soda but I've had to settle with... well water.
So That means the water part of the challenge is going awesome.

I exercise 6 days a week
I have been under (for the most part, yes I have gone over like twice I think) my caloric intake
and I've only had water, and maybe some milk here and there.

I've also noticed the tank tops and jeans I've been wearing are really loose.
That's all for now!
Here is Day 14 of Evanescence Month!!

A Fan video of Evanescence's Breath No More

Tootles,

Sweepstaking

I am obsessed with it.
Have you ever seen the show "Extreme Sweepers" or something like that?
Now I don't want to make a career out of it or something but I just want to see if it's real ya know?
I want to see if I can ACTUALLY win something for once.
I entered a lot today.
It started with the Teen Vogue site's Win It section.
I entered yesterday.
Then today I just got this itch to enter to win stuff, with my luck though? I probably won't win but that doesn't mean I should loose hope!! Ya know what gives me hope?
This guy

OH YEAH!
By the way, here's Evanescence day 13!

Fan Video of My Last Breath by Evanescence

UPDATE
HOLY SHIZNIPPLES OF FUDGENUT FREEDOM FIGHTING.
Yeah. Good workout.
Oh and I have a new tab, it's called My Story. I finally got around to making it. I'll try to get some pics up but for now its like I barfed raw emotion all over it. So yeah. You can see it here
Tootles,

Oh My Sweety Pie

Today I think I was a bad girl.
I mean I slacked on working out for some reason. Grrr.
Of course it's BITCH WEEK again.
I mean wtf?! It's been like two weeks since the last one. Oh whatever.
But tomorrow is going to be work my ass off day. Possibly doing biking and walking both.
Let's hope *fingercross*
Oh well.
Here's day 12 of Evanescence

Evanescence's Missing unofficial video

Tootles,

Day 11 and WINNING

I AM DOING IT for the first time!! I won Amethyst's contest for the 2012 Llewellyn Herbal Almanac and a mug!! This is perfect for fall and winter because I LOVE tea. I used to hate it but about three years ago I started to love it. It's also my main replacement for soda. Which is great.
On another note, WE GOT MY KITTEN TODAY!!  Little baby Jinxy!! Like from Warehouse 13. He's 6 weeks old and adorable. I'll post pictures when I get to uploading it.
Anyway day 11 for Evanescence month!!

Another unofficial video of Hello by Evanescence

Tootles,

Christmas Dress, Old Shorts, and Art Tour

A very very good day today.
I woke up at like 10 or so, ate got dressed and there is where the first good thing happened. It was hot today (Thank got it's not in the 90s but for fall it was hot out) so I was looking for shorts. I couldn't find my shorts so I looked in this pile of sweatshirts. I found an old pair of shorts. I don't know what possessed me to put them on but I did. I wasn't even thinking. I just wanted shorts! These shorts haven't fit me in years. I haven't looked at the tag so I don't know what size they are. But it was an amazing feeling. No shimmying, no sucking in, no stuffing. Just sliding in and zipping up. It was amazing. I bounced around my room. I left the house feeling awesome. I also ate right and well that leads me to my next subject which is the Art Tour. All today we went around our town to different studios, talked to people, I had an assignment to interview three artists and take pictures. Well we went to about 6 different places one of them featuring around 10 artists by itself. In all we saw about 24 artists today. It was so much fun and it really solidified my decision of being an art student. I think, when you can't imagine why someone wouldn't want to do what you do, is when you know you are in the right place. I also finally have ideas for what I want for Christmas. Because of limited funds we have to put things on layaway now for Christmas that way we can HAVE a Christmas.
And that brings us to The Christmas Dress Update, with the shorts thing I think it's going really well. I mean I've at least dropped a size in shorts so how is the rest of me going? Plus my tops are looser so yeah good good.

And for day 8 and 9!! (Ya see what happens is I open up a new post and go to write and sometimes write a little something then close it and think I post it so whatev.)

This is Before the Dawn which is from Evanescence's first album I believe. Enjoy!!

This is Lies which is another from their first albums. These also aren't official videos either so yeah.

Tootles,

Eat More Chocolate, Have Less Strokes

Yeah I saw this on this mornings news that said women who ate more chocolate were less likely to have a stroke. Hahahaha I like it.
Anywho today was intense workout day. I biked at least two miles, but most of it was uphill. It was gradual and it sucked but I felt really accomplished by the end and was able to fly down the other side. I only got off once to walk my bike up the hill. Then after I walked a half a mile afterwards. Needless to say I was sweaty after and I did a few minutes on the bowflex after. I really hope this is all paying off. I'll be weighing in on Friday so it will be a whole week. *fingers crossed*
Other than that I had an awesome day at school, had fun. I also finished my math which is awesome. All my teachers liked my hair, said I looked very Rosie Riveter which was cool since that was what I was going for. So all in all a good day!!

Day Four of Evanescence Month with My Immortal

Tootles,

Day Three!!

Of Evanescence month!! Yay! So before that I guess I should recap my day. I started out waking up at noon, as usual since last night I turned everything off at 9:30 and did fall asleep until 1 FREAKING AM!! God I try to get to sleep early but what happens? My brain doesn't shut off!! So yeah, hopefully tonight I'll go to sleep! Other than that it's raining so no bike ride and I'm forbidden from my treadmill by my doctor because of my knee. So onto the BowFlex I went and had a nice workout. Thank God for that thing or I would be stuck on the floor doing normal sit ups and shit. So yay!!
Anything else.... nope think that's it.
Onto the music!!

Day three I present Bring Me To Life

Tootles,

Oh Boy!

I feel so happy today!! I worked my ass off today!! Isn't this always how it is? You start out and you feel awesome? Like a honeymoon period of a workout plan. But anywho I found out I can ride a bike!! I am so happy! I can finally go fast again! Since I can't run. It was so nice to feel the breeze and fly by the places I used to huff past on foot. I got to fight up the small hill, it was so funny, since I was out in public and my brother was riding in front of me I was huffing and puffing up the hill, making myself not get off and walk it up and saying (quietly and partly in my head) "For all those people who think you can't do it, to show people I'm not just a fat ass who eats hohos and watches tv all day, for all those skinny bitches who look at me like I'm lower than them, to all those shirts that don't fit!" and I got up it and got to fly down the other side. The best part of riding a bike. After about a half hour of that I got to get on my BowFlex and do that for a half an hour. So a solid hour of workout today and controlled eating.
I like this because after all the dreading and sadness of gaining I can finally get back to the real deal.
So after that it is the end of the workout segment and onto
DAY TWO OF 23 DAYS OF EVANESCENCE!!
Presenting Everybody's Fool by Evanescence

Tootles,

31 I Mean 23 Days of Evanescence

I came up with this a few days ago, I wish I had done it earlier so I could do a full 31 days, but since I didn't here are 23 days of my favorite band of all time.
I've loved Evanescence since like 9.... maybe 10 years old.
The band is an Alternative Gothic genre so, in the spirit of Halloween I thought I'd post the videos and songs of, in my opinion, the best band on earth.
But before that though today was my second day on the bowflex and I think it was great today. I think what happened yesterday was that I wasn't into it very much, I was still not eating right (I had like seven pieces of bacon, yeah I know) so I just didn't have a good workout. But today I felt it, it was a good workout and I could feel my muscles working. So yeah that was nice and I started eating right again. YAY FOR STARTING GOOD!!

And now here is Going Under by Evanescence kicking off day one!!

Not Monday but it's Musical!! (and a rip off XD)

Heyo everyone!!
Fat Girl in a Skinny World
Losing For Good
One Girl One Goal

These lovely ladies gave me the bug!!
So it ain't monday but hell I read it today so stfu.
This last week has been  A HELLA LONG FRIGGIN ASS WORKOFFY AHFDFSHGFG
Yeah it was crazy, I'm finally back in the groove! My mom and I went to the lake again to drop my grandmother off cause she had surgery, and well we stayed the night. It was so NICE without a dad and siblings. You have no idea!! It was so quiet! Its not that I don't want to go to the lake again I just don't want to go with my SIBLINGS! God I am in such an anti sibling mood today.
So enough about my problems lets get onto the MUSIC!!
I have a large variety of songs that I like to listen to. Most of them have nice beats to them and some of them just remind me of wanting to run and look badass (i.e. Sucker Punch soundtrack)
SO HERE DEH ARRRRRE!!

White Rabbit - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: So this makes me want to look like an action hero and run and like fight and shoot zombies and shit. I heart it.

Tomorrow Never Knows - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Another kick ass song from the kick ass Sucker Punch movie

Rolling in the Deep - Adele: I LOVE THIS SONG because of the beat, it is so nice to have something that you can feel as your feet hit the ground.

Telephone - Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce: Another nice "beaty" song that is fun to walk with

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga: "Beaty" song

Born this Way - Lady Gaga: Not only does it have a wonderful beat but it also is so uplifting when your working out. I WAS BORN THIS WAY BITCHES!!

Evacuate the Dance Floor - Cascada: One of my first singer loves when I was little Cascada just makes me want to DANCE!!

Mambo No. 5 - Lou Bega: I'm a swing dance lover and this just also makes me want to dance, oddly enough my songs make me want to dance while I walk XD

Strip Me - Natasha Bedingfield: Just another great uplifting song

Sweet Dreams - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Another sucker punch epicness

Teeth - Lady Gaga: Lady Gaga's songs are always beaty because of them being made for clubing music while I use it to walk with

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry: of course you can't work out without Katy!!

Ain't no Other Man - Christina Aguilera: Another swinging song

Candyman - Christina Augilera: Yes again ^^^

Check Yes Juliet - We the Kings: I love this, what I call "High School" genre. Cute lovey dovey young stuff. I mean cmon I am a teen ^.^

Forever and Always - Taylor Swift: Can't have High School genre without TayTay!!

Army of Me - Sucker Punch Soundtrack: Yes I love this song it's so sexy... someone mentioned on twitter that it reminded them of like a stripper song and really... it is.

United States of Pop 2009 - DJ Earworm: This mix is AMAZING!! I love this it reminds me of anime and I love to just have fun with this song

So What - P!nk: Can't have awesome workout without p!nk!!

U + Ur Hand - P!nk: ^^^^

Rumor has it - Adele: Another rockin Adele song with a heavy beat

Misery Business - Paramore: I love this song with a passion, just is kick ass

Crush Crush Crush - Paramore: ^^^^

Sticks and Stones - The Pierces: I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song, it's a really cool indy song that I like to call my supernatural song (no not the show) since it's like about vampires and witches and stuff.

Inner Universe - Yoko Kanno: This is a Japanese song, I got it from Ghost in a Shell series. Yoko's voice is so beautiful though I like to listen to her a lot.

Rise - Yoko Kanno: another Yoko Song

So yeah that's like what 26? Oh well I love them all!!

On another note that is basically totally unrelated I was watching The Soup. The one show other then Conan that I watch to laugh my ass off. They had something on Kelley Osborn and Christina Aguilera getting into and the guy they found on the interwebs was SO FUNNY!!

"Nothing raises a bitches eye brow more than one fat bitch calling another fat bitch a fat bitch! You know how they say sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you? Bitch thats a MotherF@ckin lie!"

Yeah I laughed my ass off!!

Hope You Don't Mind That I Put Down in Words

How wonderful life is when I'm listening to Elton John.
Yeah corny I know.
Anywho another day is through and I am ready for an early (Well early to me) bed time. I'm an artist so naturally as is my species's culture I am to go to sleep really late working on something as inspiration strikes at midnight. But not tonight!! I'm breaking the trend!! Well trying to.
You see I've been breaking a lot of bad habits lately
Some of them include:
Nail Biting
Hair Plucking (yeah I know but it's been a while since I did that)
Late Bedtime
Laziness
Bossiness to my siblings.

SO yeah that's along with the diet and work out, so that's nice for me.
Time for good ol Elton to sing me to sleep.
Night all. 

Music

So I love love love music. Music was one of the main ways of entertainment for me when I was little. But I rarely hear the songs that I used to listen to and  sometimes I can't remember the names of the songs.
Sooooo: I decided to set up my dad's old Record Player. I'm listening to Elton John now XD. So yeah yay me!!