With bread!
I've been craving bread SO hard lately! But with regular sandwiches I've kept it pretty much under control. Of course my dad brought home doughnuts! Not his fault though cause I haven't really announced my gluten freeness. I was able only to take a little bite and put down the bready goodness without binging. For breakfast I had Special K cerial with a colby jack cheese stick and half a vitamin water and now I'm chewing gum to keep me over until "lunch" which should be around 3 since I've been having trouble sleeping and I got up at noon AGAIN!
It'll be hard but I have to reset my clock.
Another change is I will physically write down my calories and watch them as eat. It's gonna suck but I really have to do it this time.
Yesterday was a great day though, I watched my food and I think I did really good along with a little work out at the end with my sister.
I really hope my feelings are right about this year for my weight loss and life in general. I hope there will be a big change.
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Thursday, January 5, 2012
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
A Little Name Changing and Self Finding
Hello
I haven't been on but it's been the Holidays and hectic but hey really I needed some time to myself. You have no idea how relaxing it has been not having to worry about what I'm eating. I know it's bad and I've gained (I haven't weighed in so I don't know how much) but New Years is literally right around the corner and that's the time for resolutions. I know that's kind of following the crowd but you know what over these few weeks I've realized that it doesn't matter! It doesn't matter if I',m following a crowd or not! There are so many people out there obsessed with NOT following the crowd (like "I only read books that no one's heard of" WHAT?! What kind of preference is that!! And I'm not joking someone actually said that to me!)and people who MUST follow the crowd, they HAVE to shop at Hot Topic because that's what everyone else is doing or they have to shop at Abracrombie because that's what everyone is doing. But really we are the crowd whether we want to be or not. We are all in a crowd one was or another. Whether we're in the "I read books no one's heard of" crowd or the "I must wear the latest labels" crowd there is a "group" for that.
If you don't define yourself by anyone else's standers but your own then really you kind of are out of the crowd in a way. Sure there are people with maybe that same philosophy but no one is EXACTLY like you. I don't really know how to exactly say it but really I just need to find my own road. I don't want to think too much about how we all seem to follow some kind of group and if we are all unique then no one is actually unique. Then I get depressed hehe.
But after all this blah blah blah what I'm trying to say is yes I will keep trying to loose weight but I won't let embarrassment about my current size bother me anymore. Of course it won't just be as easy as flipping a switch. I will still cringe at pictures of me or suck it in when a cute boy comes around but I will try to not let it rule my life. I'm trying to change my weight for myself and I shouldn't be judged for that and even though I will be I will try to make sure that they won't define me.
I hope you are all still there, I still have most of my journey ahead of me and I hope by the end I will have entertained and inspired you maybe even just a little hehe.
Loves and Hugs,
I haven't been on but it's been the Holidays and hectic but hey really I needed some time to myself. You have no idea how relaxing it has been not having to worry about what I'm eating. I know it's bad and I've gained (I haven't weighed in so I don't know how much) but New Years is literally right around the corner and that's the time for resolutions. I know that's kind of following the crowd but you know what over these few weeks I've realized that it doesn't matter! It doesn't matter if I',m following a crowd or not! There are so many people out there obsessed with NOT following the crowd (like "I only read books that no one's heard of" WHAT?! What kind of preference is that!! And I'm not joking someone actually said that to me!)and people who MUST follow the crowd, they HAVE to shop at Hot Topic because that's what everyone else is doing or they have to shop at Abracrombie because that's what everyone is doing. But really we are the crowd whether we want to be or not. We are all in a crowd one was or another. Whether we're in the "I read books no one's heard of" crowd or the "I must wear the latest labels" crowd there is a "group" for that.
If you don't define yourself by anyone else's standers but your own then really you kind of are out of the crowd in a way. Sure there are people with maybe that same philosophy but no one is EXACTLY like you. I don't really know how to exactly say it but really I just need to find my own road. I don't want to think too much about how we all seem to follow some kind of group and if we are all unique then no one is actually unique. Then I get depressed hehe.
But after all this blah blah blah what I'm trying to say is yes I will keep trying to loose weight but I won't let embarrassment about my current size bother me anymore. Of course it won't just be as easy as flipping a switch. I will still cringe at pictures of me or suck it in when a cute boy comes around but I will try to not let it rule my life. I'm trying to change my weight for myself and I shouldn't be judged for that and even though I will be I will try to make sure that they won't define me.
I hope you are all still there, I still have most of my journey ahead of me and I hope by the end I will have entertained and inspired you maybe even just a little hehe.
Loves and Hugs,
Friday, December 2, 2011
I'm Baaaaack
Hey all!
I am soooo sorry I've been MIA lately! As I think I posted before my computer crashed. I thought it was going to be a simple fix but instead I had to go through the insurance process to get a new one. Yep new computer!! So here I am again!!
I guess I should update a little. Last time a weighted in I was 206 again!! That was a loss of 3lbs I think the week i weighed in so that is good.
I've changed my plan again, I think for the better. Before I was overeating then being like "Oh well let's just go work my ass off" well that would just balance my weight out or not even help it. Now I'm working out a min of 3 times a week and I've added some new little things to my workouts. Because of the weather and the winter coming I haven't been able to get out and ride or walk so instead on Sundays we're going to the horses and I'll ride there.
Now you might think "Riding a horse? HA! That's not a workout!" well then I say HA to you! and another HA! Because my thighs and stomach muscles hurt like HELL for three days afterwards! You have to grip with your legs and keep yourself up with her stomach muscles. At the time you won't notice it but afterwards you will.
Another thing is AirAligned
What is this you ask? Fist off I did my first lesson on Monday and my whole body still hurts today ON FRIDAY!!
Second here is the basics, I've only learned the first three moves she does (except I was able to touch the ground and I wasn't up in the air yet)
Of course to my favorite band Evanescence.
But this is working your WHOLE DAMN BODY! You're basically lifting your body weight into the air which for me means hoisting 206 lbs into the air by my arms or legs. Yeah it's intense but its HELLA FUN!! I've always wanted to do gymnastics but I always thought I was way too fat and I have no upper body strength. But I joined this because I have two friends from school who help and participate in the class and my little sister is in it too.
It's really fun but REALLY rare at least I think...
Of course all the other girls other than my friends who are average height and weight, are like 90lbs soaking wet and have been doing this for a little while. Great. Little girls in leotards and me.... yeah but its not competitive, the girls are really nice so far and there is no judgment. Over these last few weeks I realized that even if I get dirty look from people who think I'm to fat to workout or whatever they think (I mean really why would you think like that?!) I find that I'm there for myself not them and I am there to loose weight. So screw them and their negative thoughts and feelings. I'm here to make myself better not to make them happy.
So that's all for now
Tootles,
I am soooo sorry I've been MIA lately! As I think I posted before my computer crashed. I thought it was going to be a simple fix but instead I had to go through the insurance process to get a new one. Yep new computer!! So here I am again!!
I guess I should update a little. Last time a weighted in I was 206 again!! That was a loss of 3lbs I think the week i weighed in so that is good.
I've changed my plan again, I think for the better. Before I was overeating then being like "Oh well let's just go work my ass off" well that would just balance my weight out or not even help it. Now I'm working out a min of 3 times a week and I've added some new little things to my workouts. Because of the weather and the winter coming I haven't been able to get out and ride or walk so instead on Sundays we're going to the horses and I'll ride there.
Now you might think "Riding a horse? HA! That's not a workout!" well then I say HA to you! and another HA! Because my thighs and stomach muscles hurt like HELL for three days afterwards! You have to grip with your legs and keep yourself up with her stomach muscles. At the time you won't notice it but afterwards you will.
Another thing is AirAligned
What is this you ask? Fist off I did my first lesson on Monday and my whole body still hurts today ON FRIDAY!!
Second here is the basics, I've only learned the first three moves she does (except I was able to touch the ground and I wasn't up in the air yet)
Of course to my favorite band Evanescence.
But this is working your WHOLE DAMN BODY! You're basically lifting your body weight into the air which for me means hoisting 206 lbs into the air by my arms or legs. Yeah it's intense but its HELLA FUN!! I've always wanted to do gymnastics but I always thought I was way too fat and I have no upper body strength. But I joined this because I have two friends from school who help and participate in the class and my little sister is in it too.
It's really fun but REALLY rare at least I think...
Of course all the other girls other than my friends who are average height and weight, are like 90lbs soaking wet and have been doing this for a little while. Great. Little girls in leotards and me.... yeah but its not competitive, the girls are really nice so far and there is no judgment. Over these last few weeks I realized that even if I get dirty look from people who think I'm to fat to workout or whatever they think (I mean really why would you think like that?!) I find that I'm there for myself not them and I am there to loose weight. So screw them and their negative thoughts and feelings. I'm here to make myself better not to make them happy.
So that's all for now
Tootles,
Friday, November 11, 2011
Hi Again
Sorry!! I haven't been on lately because of my missing computer. I haven't gotten it back and I don't think I will because it might be shot... ugh!! On the diet front I LOST 1.5 LBS THIS WEEK!! Yaay!! My trick this week? I focused on my eating! Crazy right? The past weeks have been bad because I'm trying to compensate for my bad eating with exercise then I give up on some days. But this week I've been watching my eating, not soda still (Even when eating out!!) and I have been eating meals and not just snacking.
Next I'm going to work on eliminating candy, like lollipops, chocolate, sour patch and whatever. I want to make something that tracks my sugar intake. Like I can only have a candy bar or no dessert unless its after dinner, counting how many cookies I eat instead of just eating and then guessing. Once I have gotten into good solid eating I will focus back on good exercises and normal exercise habits.
Let's see I would also like to actually start looking at professional blogs and see how they talk and write. I want to start making my blog look pretty in the way I write instead of just writing like it's a public journal and putting as much thought into it as a Facebook status.
Hopefully there is better posts to come and welcome to new readers!! Hope there's more to come!!
Tootles,
Next I'm going to work on eliminating candy, like lollipops, chocolate, sour patch and whatever. I want to make something that tracks my sugar intake. Like I can only have a candy bar or no dessert unless its after dinner, counting how many cookies I eat instead of just eating and then guessing. Once I have gotten into good solid eating I will focus back on good exercises and normal exercise habits.
Let's see I would also like to actually start looking at professional blogs and see how they talk and write. I want to start making my blog look pretty in the way I write instead of just writing like it's a public journal and putting as much thought into it as a Facebook status.
Hopefully there is better posts to come and welcome to new readers!! Hope there's more to come!!
Tootles,
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Can I Have a Medical Leave for a Broken Heart?
From school? I guess not since it was more of a self inflicted heartbreak. I know why it's called having a Crush because when you find out that they are infinitely happy with someone else it Crushes you. I knew it would happen, I hoped it wouldn't, but it did. It was the same one who I thought I saw in town and well it was confirmation and I fell ridiculous for hoping it wasn't. I thought I would keep my composure but I didn't when I went to bed. It just let it out and damn it felt good. Would of felt better if I had someone to let it out to but beggars can't be choosers right?
Well for more shitty news I gained .9 lbs. Thank God it wasn't more but still it was a gain. I'm super determined now though because of my broken heart. For once I'm not sitting there eating ice cream and crying my eyes out like this:
(P.S. Check out the link, B1nd1 is an amazing artist)
Instead I want to loose the weight. So if someone comes along that I like I will have the confidence to talk to them AT LEAST!! The last few days haven't been real good either, I got sick so exercising has been crap. I got a few minutes in on the BowFlex yesterday and 31/2 miles today on the bike. eating has been on track for the most part so it's been good.
Well that's all I have to say hehe. I feel okay emotional and sickness wise so... lets hope tomorrow is better.
Tootles,
Well for more shitty news I gained .9 lbs. Thank God it wasn't more but still it was a gain. I'm super determined now though because of my broken heart. For once I'm not sitting there eating ice cream and crying my eyes out like this:
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Instead I want to loose the weight. So if someone comes along that I like I will have the confidence to talk to them AT LEAST!! The last few days haven't been real good either, I got sick so exercising has been crap. I got a few minutes in on the BowFlex yesterday and 31/2 miles today on the bike. eating has been on track for the most part so it's been good.
Well that's all I have to say hehe. I feel okay emotional and sickness wise so... lets hope tomorrow is better.
Tootles,
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Just a Bit and Some Evanescnce
Just a little news, I worked out finally today again. Other than that I ate well and worked for Dr. Mortis. Another thing is the fact that I almost fainted from not drinking enough water. Crazy thing is I had a dream of fainting last night so that was weird.
Anywho here's Evanescence day 21, 22, and 23 since I missed yesterday and I probably won't get on tomorrow because of Halloween and homework. UGH!!
Farther Away - Evanescence Fan Video
IDK if I did this already but here's Good Enough Official Video from Evanescence
Of course I saved the best for last, Sweet Sacrafice by Evanescence Official Video, this is perfect for Halloween Enjoy!!
Tootles,
Anywho here's Evanescence day 21, 22, and 23 since I missed yesterday and I probably won't get on tomorrow because of Halloween and homework. UGH!!
Farther Away - Evanescence Fan Video
IDK if I did this already but here's Good Enough Official Video from Evanescence
Of course I saved the best for last, Sweet Sacrafice by Evanescence Official Video, this is perfect for Halloween Enjoy!!
Tootles,
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| HAPPY HALLOWEEN |
Friday, October 28, 2011
Weigh In
So you know how I was talking about expecting to gain? Well I did, but you know what? I'm not torn up about it. I'm up 4.4 which sucks. But I think because I was expecting to gain it wasn't a big deal. Of course it's disappointing but I know I didn't do well and four days of exercise when I should have done 6 and drinking soda again totally helped the gain. But that just means I'm going to have to work harder. And no more soda!!
Ugh.
Evanescence day 19 and 20
Where Will you Go Fan Video
Official Video of What You Want by Evanescence one of the most recent releases.
tootles,
Ugh.
Evanescence day 19 and 20
Where Will you Go Fan Video
Official Video of What You Want by Evanescence one of the most recent releases.
tootles,
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Good Workout and PAINTS!
If you don't already know I'm an art student and always will be. But today I finally got my paints!! I have two canvases and some obscure colored painted but I went and got the "rainbow" colors and some glitter!! Yay!! I'm going to pain tonight maybe but when I finish it I'll scan it and show everyone!!
In other news I had a GREAT workout today but my eating.... sucked. It's like when I'm hungry and craving stuff it's like my mind goes blank. Lately I've been working towards fitting into this dress I own from my 8th grade graduation. It's really beautiful and timeless but I don't fit it. If I can't get the dress for my CDC then my goal will be to fir into that again.
I kicked ass with my workout today, I biked for 30-40 minutes then walked for another 20 then did my Bowflex for 10 minutes. That was good.
This is also my 100th post...
IDK WHAT TO DO!! I wish I could do a giveaway but I don't have anything and if I did I don't have the money to cover postage.
soooo.... OH
Does anyone want to get a picture done for them? I'm not too good with life like or animals but I can do some nifty stuff... I don't know if anyone would be interested but yeah that's all I can do lolololol.
Anywho Evanescence day 18
Your Star by Evanescence Fan Video
Tootles,
In other news I had a GREAT workout today but my eating.... sucked. It's like when I'm hungry and craving stuff it's like my mind goes blank. Lately I've been working towards fitting into this dress I own from my 8th grade graduation. It's really beautiful and timeless but I don't fit it. If I can't get the dress for my CDC then my goal will be to fir into that again.
I kicked ass with my workout today, I biked for 30-40 minutes then walked for another 20 then did my Bowflex for 10 minutes. That was good.
This is also my 100th post...
IDK WHAT TO DO!! I wish I could do a giveaway but I don't have anything and if I did I don't have the money to cover postage.
soooo.... OH
Does anyone want to get a picture done for them? I'm not too good with life like or animals but I can do some nifty stuff... I don't know if anyone would be interested but yeah that's all I can do lolololol.
Anywho Evanescence day 18
Your Star by Evanescence Fan Video
Tootles,
Monday, October 24, 2011
Holy Nut Muffins!!
I kicked my ass today. Really really kicked my ass. I biked for like 40-45 minutes up hill and down hill. It hurt so much!! But I did it and I drank water only after drinking soda for two days straight. I'm a little puffy but I know I worked hard today and ate right. So I think we're back on track. I'm wearing a dress today, I always was too uncomfortable to wear it and I bought it like a year or two ago yet I never wore it out in public. Tonight I actually will.
Sorry I didn't post the Evanescence Video yesterday. I was just too out of it.
In other news I found that I do want to run a 5K.
The 5K of my choice?
RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!
I've been hearing about this for like months now but I never really thought about doing it. But I watched videos of it today and I thought "Hell! I can do that!!"
For those who don't know, it's basically a 5K with obstacles mixed with capture the flag football. You get I think 4-5 flags that you wear around your waist and run from zombies, all while throwing yourself through chain link fences and over hay bales.
Yes I said zombies.
If your flags run out you are "dead" but if you make it to the end with at least one flag you are "alive" idk if you get a prize if you survive but they had at the end a "Dead" or "Alive" side, it may be to see how many people survived but whatever.
If you guys have any suggestions on how to train for it I would be grateful hehehe!!
Here's the day 16 and 17
Cloud Nine by Evanescence
Weight of the World by Evanescence. I'm not sure if I've already done this.
Tootles,
Sorry I didn't post the Evanescence Video yesterday. I was just too out of it.
In other news I found that I do want to run a 5K.
The 5K of my choice?
RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!
I've been hearing about this for like months now but I never really thought about doing it. But I watched videos of it today and I thought "Hell! I can do that!!"
For those who don't know, it's basically a 5K with obstacles mixed with capture the flag football. You get I think 4-5 flags that you wear around your waist and run from zombies, all while throwing yourself through chain link fences and over hay bales.
Yes I said zombies.
If your flags run out you are "dead" but if you make it to the end with at least one flag you are "alive" idk if you get a prize if you survive but they had at the end a "Dead" or "Alive" side, it may be to see how many people survived but whatever.
If you guys have any suggestions on how to train for it I would be grateful hehehe!!
Here's the day 16 and 17
Cloud Nine by Evanescence
Weight of the World by Evanescence. I'm not sure if I've already done this.
Tootles,
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Lazy Day
Oh where is my water!!
I had soda for the first time and weeks and by the end of the day I wanted my water back!!
We went to Claim Jumpers for lunch, It was so good!! I ate till I was full then we went to WalMart and then to JoAnns. We went to Sonic where I ate mozzarella sticks and had a Sonic milkshake thing or whatever. So yeah I ate a lot today but I also was on my feet most of the time. Tommorrow I'm going to have to kick my ass after the Haunted House "briefing" and movies WE'RE GOING TO SEE REAL STEAL YAAAAY!!
Anywho
Day 15 of Evanescence month
Lacramosa by Evanescence
Tootles,
I had soda for the first time and weeks and by the end of the day I wanted my water back!!
We went to Claim Jumpers for lunch, It was so good!! I ate till I was full then we went to WalMart and then to JoAnns. We went to Sonic where I ate mozzarella sticks and had a Sonic milkshake thing or whatever. So yeah I ate a lot today but I also was on my feet most of the time. Tommorrow I'm going to have to kick my ass after the Haunted House "briefing" and movies WE'RE GOING TO SEE REAL STEAL YAAAAY!!
Anywho
Day 15 of Evanescence month
Lacramosa by Evanescence
Tootles,
Monday, October 17, 2011
BowFlex Update and All this Stuff
I've gone up 5lbs from my previous amount of weight, I went from 25 to 30 which is awesome, I'm still only doing 40 lbs on the resisted sit ups and my lower back has been killing me all day.
For dinner I made Shrimp stir fry, shrimp, pea pods (idk what kind), green beans, and mushrooms in a garlic sesame sauce. It tasted like take out from some family owned Chinese restaurant!! I know how to make some kind of Asian dish now!!
In other news... well there's not much other news.... hmmm. OH I have no school this week! Yay!! So yeah that's about it. Oh and Evanescence day 10.
This is Lithium by Evanescence. Another great official video by Evanescence, you need to watch it.
Tootles,
For dinner I made Shrimp stir fry, shrimp, pea pods (idk what kind), green beans, and mushrooms in a garlic sesame sauce. It tasted like take out from some family owned Chinese restaurant!! I know how to make some kind of Asian dish now!!
In other news... well there's not much other news.... hmmm. OH I have no school this week! Yay!! So yeah that's about it. Oh and Evanescence day 10.
This is Lithium by Evanescence. Another great official video by Evanescence, you need to watch it.
Tootles,
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Christmas Dress, Old Shorts, and Art Tour
A very very good day today.
I woke up at like 10 or so, ate got dressed and there is where the first good thing happened. It was hot today (Thank got it's not in the 90s but for fall it was hot out) so I was looking for shorts. I couldn't find my shorts so I looked in this pile of sweatshirts. I found an old pair of shorts. I don't know what possessed me to put them on but I did. I wasn't even thinking. I just wanted shorts! These shorts haven't fit me in years. I haven't looked at the tag so I don't know what size they are. But it was an amazing feeling. No shimmying, no sucking in, no stuffing. Just sliding in and zipping up. It was amazing. I bounced around my room. I left the house feeling awesome. I also ate right and well that leads me to my next subject which is the Art Tour. All today we went around our town to different studios, talked to people, I had an assignment to interview three artists and take pictures. Well we went to about 6 different places one of them featuring around 10 artists by itself. In all we saw about 24 artists today. It was so much fun and it really solidified my decision of being an art student. I think, when you can't imagine why someone wouldn't want to do what you do, is when you know you are in the right place. I also finally have ideas for what I want for Christmas. Because of limited funds we have to put things on layaway now for Christmas that way we can HAVE a Christmas.
And that brings us to The Christmas Dress Update, with the shorts thing I think it's going really well. I mean I've at least dropped a size in shorts so how is the rest of me going? Plus my tops are looser so yeah good good.
And for day 8 and 9!! (Ya see what happens is I open up a new post and go to write and sometimes write a little something then close it and think I post it so whatev.)
This is Before the Dawn which is from Evanescence's first album I believe. Enjoy!!
This is Lies which is another from their first albums. These also aren't official videos either so yeah.
Tootles,
I woke up at like 10 or so, ate got dressed and there is where the first good thing happened. It was hot today (Thank got it's not in the 90s but for fall it was hot out) so I was looking for shorts. I couldn't find my shorts so I looked in this pile of sweatshirts. I found an old pair of shorts. I don't know what possessed me to put them on but I did. I wasn't even thinking. I just wanted shorts! These shorts haven't fit me in years. I haven't looked at the tag so I don't know what size they are. But it was an amazing feeling. No shimmying, no sucking in, no stuffing. Just sliding in and zipping up. It was amazing. I bounced around my room. I left the house feeling awesome. I also ate right and well that leads me to my next subject which is the Art Tour. All today we went around our town to different studios, talked to people, I had an assignment to interview three artists and take pictures. Well we went to about 6 different places one of them featuring around 10 artists by itself. In all we saw about 24 artists today. It was so much fun and it really solidified my decision of being an art student. I think, when you can't imagine why someone wouldn't want to do what you do, is when you know you are in the right place. I also finally have ideas for what I want for Christmas. Because of limited funds we have to put things on layaway now for Christmas that way we can HAVE a Christmas.
And that brings us to The Christmas Dress Update, with the shorts thing I think it's going really well. I mean I've at least dropped a size in shorts so how is the rest of me going? Plus my tops are looser so yeah good good.
And for day 8 and 9!! (Ya see what happens is I open up a new post and go to write and sometimes write a little something then close it and think I post it so whatev.)
This is Before the Dawn which is from Evanescence's first album I believe. Enjoy!!
This is Lies which is another from their first albums. These also aren't official videos either so yeah.
Tootles,
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Yummy yummy in Mah Tummy
So I made dinner tonight, I didn't use a recipe I just basically made it up as I went along. I made Corn and Mushroom...mix or something, I don't know what to call it. And I made a Chicken, tomato and bacon idk what to call it. Here I took pictures.
So yeah that's what was for dinner tonight!! In other news, I went to the doctors, good news my knee is doing fine. bad news: my weight is 221lbs. Good news also though I'm in Bitch week (yeah last week was a flook or something, according to my doctor I'm still "developing and regulating" so basically it means Bitch week can be three days or two weeks. FUN RIGHT?! So that means bloating, bigger boobs and well that one little present.
But other than that, I haven't gotten back up to where I was originally which means I'm not completely starting over. All in all I good day.
Yeah So that's about it!!
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But other than that, I haven't gotten back up to where I was originally which means I'm not completely starting over. All in all I good day.
Yeah So that's about it!!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
OOhhhhmmmmm.... OOhhhhmmmmm...
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I haven't exercised in God knows how long and I have to get weighed at my doctors appointment. Oh dear lawdy. I think I'm more disappointed in myself about not finding the time to exercise, I know I have been using our completely hectic scheduled but really I should be trying harder. I just need to take a few breaths, relax and plan. Tomorrow night I might be able to finally get on that bowflex and use it, if not Friday is the day I plan on doing it. This weekend is *knock on wood* freed up so I hope this is the time to start again.
In Christmas Dress Challenge, well I bet you can guess how that's going. I don't want to give up, I want to look good in that dress but I don't think that I'll be able to do it by Christmas!!
In good news I have October break coming up in two weeks, what does that mean? I have free range to work out as much as I can. So once again let's take a few OOOOHHHHMMMMM moments.
There we go.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Shopping Day!!
Gosh I am so proud of my mom and I!!
We go on a huge shopping trip every month for food. Now usually we go and whatever we see that we like we pick up and throw it in the cart, I think this is why our eating has been so bad cause we say "Oh that looks good! Throw it in the cart! Oh yeah totally lets get that!" Then we get home with mostly just snacks rather than real meals and they end up being mostly junk.
But today we planned meals on the way down, I got a cool new app on my phone just called Recipes and I believe it's by cooks.com or some site like that. You can look up recipes and then create a checklist of the ingredients you need to buy. So I have two dinners lined up and got the ingredients. Then other than that I bought some Fiber One + Antioxidants Yogurt Berry something-or-other. Tea for sleeping better, tomorrow is start over day and I am hella ready.
Our shopping cart to car to fridge is stocked with fresh veggies and healthy grains.
I'm excited and had an awesome day. Tomorrow I'll try out the bowflex and maybe take some before pictures.
SO all in all a great start to a new beginning/rebirth lololololol.
tootles,
We go on a huge shopping trip every month for food. Now usually we go and whatever we see that we like we pick up and throw it in the cart, I think this is why our eating has been so bad cause we say "Oh that looks good! Throw it in the cart! Oh yeah totally lets get that!" Then we get home with mostly just snacks rather than real meals and they end up being mostly junk.
But today we planned meals on the way down, I got a cool new app on my phone just called Recipes and I believe it's by cooks.com or some site like that. You can look up recipes and then create a checklist of the ingredients you need to buy. So I have two dinners lined up and got the ingredients. Then other than that I bought some Fiber One + Antioxidants Yogurt Berry something-or-other. Tea for sleeping better, tomorrow is start over day and I am hella ready.
Our shopping cart to car to fridge is stocked with fresh veggies and healthy grains.
I'm excited and had an awesome day. Tomorrow I'll try out the bowflex and maybe take some before pictures.
SO all in all a great start to a new beginning/rebirth lololololol.
tootles,
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sucky New Day
Yeah.
So today ended suckishly. It was a great morning, where I actually woke up before noon, I ate a good breakfast (Other than discovering that the bacon was bad X<) then I had a nice lunch at an appropriate time. Then everything went down hill. I made a homemade Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo, the sauce is basically made of milk and fat. I ate so much of that (cause well I love my own food XD). So then I went on a walk came back and did some crunches. I'm finding that by the time that I'm on the floor for my other exercises I really REALLY don't want to do it!! My body is like rebelling against it!. So I think what I'm gonna have to do it do the treadmill and do 2 miles one day then a shat load of calisthenics. I think I'm just at that point now so yeah!
it's really frustrating.
Let's revisit Mr. Armstrong.
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Okay I feel better!!
So today ended suckishly. It was a great morning, where I actually woke up before noon, I ate a good breakfast (Other than discovering that the bacon was bad X<) then I had a nice lunch at an appropriate time. Then everything went down hill. I made a homemade Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo, the sauce is basically made of milk and fat. I ate so much of that (cause well I love my own food XD). So then I went on a walk came back and did some crunches. I'm finding that by the time that I'm on the floor for my other exercises I really REALLY don't want to do it!! My body is like rebelling against it!. So I think what I'm gonna have to do it do the treadmill and do 2 miles one day then a shat load of calisthenics. I think I'm just at that point now so yeah!
Let's revisit Mr. Armstrong.
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Okay I feel better!!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Great Great Day!
So I was home alone for the night since my family went camping, I didn't sleep very well and didn't get out of bed until noon, but when I got up I had a fiber one chewy bar and then I walked 7/10ths of a mile on the dreadmill then I showered and ate breakfast. I felt so proud of myself!! I'm going to go for an actual walk tonight since it's so nice outside!! It is cloudy and cool, and NOT HUMID! Which means it's so freaking awesome outside. SO I'm going to take the small doggy out (He freaking loves his walks! He gets so excited!) and go around the neighborhood, I'm not going to let the numbers get me down this time. My mom said that for a few weeks instead of weighing in we'll measure in. It's not as accurate for me but we'll see what the numbers say in a few weeks. Let's hope their good! I'm also detoxing from soda, I haven't had one in two days which is good, I'm having tea instead which is nice.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Didn't Post
Most Likely over ate. Shit.
So today has been good so far, only had a sandwich and a slice of lemon bread. But I think I'm having pizza for dinner so that'll be s dump on my diet oh and guess what! No walk! Yeah No walk! Know why? Cause we have to truck out to a freaking hell hole on earth for a long ass promotion for my sister. Not that I don't love my sister and am glad shes ranking up and all that shiz but I really don't want to go out there. Really don't.
So today has been good so far, only had a sandwich and a slice of lemon bread. But I think I'm having pizza for dinner so that'll be s dump on my diet oh and guess what! No walk! Yeah No walk! Know why? Cause we have to truck out to a freaking hell hole on earth for a long ass promotion for my sister. Not that I don't love my sister and am glad shes ranking up and all that shiz but I really don't want to go out there. Really don't.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Monday Weigh In
So, today was weigh in
And
the
weight
was
*drumroll*
210!!
I HAVE LOST 16LBS ALL TOGETHER AND 3.5 LBS THIS WEEK!!
ohemgee you have no idea how happy I am to hear that!! Just last night I kicking my ass, calling myself fat, loser, blob. And woke up depressed cause of bad dreams and bad sleep (I slept better on a blow up mattress in the woods) so I thought, might as well just weigh in.
I guess you do get rewarded for being good.
And all that swimming probably didn't hurt.
And
the
weight
was
*drumroll*
210!!
I HAVE LOST 16LBS ALL TOGETHER AND 3.5 LBS THIS WEEK!!
ohemgee you have no idea how happy I am to hear that!! Just last night I kicking my ass, calling myself fat, loser, blob. And woke up depressed cause of bad dreams and bad sleep (I slept better on a blow up mattress in the woods) so I thought, might as well just weigh in.
I guess you do get rewarded for being good.
And all that swimming probably didn't hurt.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
LET'S GET READY TO RUMBLE!!
Time to beat myself over the head with a mallet! Yay! A spectacle that you can all enjoy!! So I didn't gain nor loose anything last week so that should be motivation to stay on track and keep going right? Wrong.
Between Pie and Ice Cream for breakfast and KFC for dinner today was a bad day to be on a diet. This isn't just weight loss, it's detoxing and relapsing. It's an addiction, it really is! I always knew that people had food addictions, and like drugs or alcohol some people need help in getting off of it. And when I say people I say me.
Sure there's those fancy weight loss camps that if your rich you can truck your fat ass off to and get skinny and that's all fine and great. Good for you! But for those of us who don't have the time or money well rehab is just not an option, and yes I know the people who go there have emotional problems and need counseling and stuff. And I have no problem with them really I don't! I find it inspirational when they loose all the weight but.... I'm only 16, I don't have the resources, time, or money to hike my fat ass to a nice rehab center where they take the crap away and help me ease into the healthy lane. I have to do it myself.
There are no pills
There are no shots
I can walk into a grocery store, I don't need to find a drug dealer
I don't need to go to a bar
I don't need to be a certain age
We can go anywhere and get food see food
It's not illegal to eat food
Food is the cheapest, safest, and easiest addiction to obtain.
Comparatively.
I don't think people realize that. They look at someone over weight and write them off as lazy and sloppy. I watched Taboo about Sizes I believe. They said a survey showed that people are completely sexist of fat people. They look at pictures of overweight men and say things such as "Cuddly, warm, sweet," and see a woman and say "Lazy, Slob, Ugly"
I guess I'm just ranting since I'm angry at myself.
And I'm finally admitting to, Yes I have a problem. I'm addicted to food.
I read about thinking before eating. Rather then just compulsively eating. And I've found that I fight myself.
"I don't need it,"
"I shouldn't be eating this,"
"I should just do the smaller order,"
"Just eat half"
Then my other half says
"C'mon it's just a little,"
"You deserve it,"
"You've been good,"
"You'll just burn it off when you go for your walk,"
Yeah it's bad. Like I said it's an addiction. I want my hit, I give excuses to get my figurative "high" then I regret it. Although I haven't found myself eating because of emotion, I just want it. Although I could be, it's a possibility. I usually eat out of boredom.
So that's my ranting for today.
Between Pie and Ice Cream for breakfast and KFC for dinner today was a bad day to be on a diet. This isn't just weight loss, it's detoxing and relapsing. It's an addiction, it really is! I always knew that people had food addictions, and like drugs or alcohol some people need help in getting off of it. And when I say people I say me.
Sure there's those fancy weight loss camps that if your rich you can truck your fat ass off to and get skinny and that's all fine and great. Good for you! But for those of us who don't have the time or money well rehab is just not an option, and yes I know the people who go there have emotional problems and need counseling and stuff. And I have no problem with them really I don't! I find it inspirational when they loose all the weight but.... I'm only 16, I don't have the resources, time, or money to hike my fat ass to a nice rehab center where they take the crap away and help me ease into the healthy lane. I have to do it myself.
There are no pills
There are no shots
I can walk into a grocery store, I don't need to find a drug dealer
I don't need to go to a bar
I don't need to be a certain age
We can go anywhere and get food see food
It's not illegal to eat food
Food is the cheapest, safest, and easiest addiction to obtain.
Comparatively.
I don't think people realize that. They look at someone over weight and write them off as lazy and sloppy. I watched Taboo about Sizes I believe. They said a survey showed that people are completely sexist of fat people. They look at pictures of overweight men and say things such as "Cuddly, warm, sweet," and see a woman and say "Lazy, Slob, Ugly"
I guess I'm just ranting since I'm angry at myself.
And I'm finally admitting to, Yes I have a problem. I'm addicted to food.
I read about thinking before eating. Rather then just compulsively eating. And I've found that I fight myself.
"I don't need it,"
"I shouldn't be eating this,"
"I should just do the smaller order,"
"Just eat half"
Then my other half says
"C'mon it's just a little,"
"You deserve it,"
"You've been good,"
"You'll just burn it off when you go for your walk,"
Yeah it's bad. Like I said it's an addiction. I want my hit, I give excuses to get my figurative "high" then I regret it. Although I haven't found myself eating because of emotion, I just want it. Although I could be, it's a possibility. I usually eat out of boredom.
So that's my ranting for today.
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