I'm Baaaaack

Hey all!
I am soooo sorry I've been MIA lately! As I think I posted before my computer crashed. I thought it was going to be a simple fix but instead I had to go through the insurance process to get a new one. Yep new computer!! So here I am again!!
I guess I should update a little. Last time a weighted in I was 206 again!! That was a loss of 3lbs I think the week i weighed in so that is good.
I've changed my plan again, I think for the better. Before I was overeating then being like "Oh well let's just go work my ass off" well that would just balance my weight out or not even help it. Now I'm working out a min of 3 times a week and I've added some new little things to my workouts. Because of the weather and the winter coming I haven't been able to get out and ride or walk so instead on Sundays we're going to the horses and I'll ride there.
Now you might think "Riding a horse? HA! That's not a workout!" well then I say HA to you! and another HA! Because my thighs and stomach muscles hurt like HELL for three days afterwards! You have to grip with your legs and keep yourself up with her stomach muscles. At the time you won't notice it but afterwards you will.
Another thing is AirAligned
What is this you ask? Fist off I did my first lesson on Monday and my whole body still hurts today ON FRIDAY!!
Second here is the basics, I've only learned the first three moves she does (except I was able to touch the ground and I wasn't up in the air yet)

Of course to my favorite band Evanescence.
But this is working your WHOLE DAMN BODY! You're basically lifting your body weight into the air which for me means hoisting 206 lbs into the air by my arms or legs. Yeah it's intense but its HELLA FUN!! I've always wanted to do gymnastics but I always thought I was way too fat and I have no upper body strength. But I joined this because I have two friends from school who help and participate in the class and my little sister is in it too.
It's really fun but REALLY rare at least I think...
Of course all the other girls other than my friends who are average height and weight, are like 90lbs soaking wet and have been doing this for a little while. Great. Little girls in leotards and me.... yeah but its not competitive, the girls are really nice so far and there is no judgment. Over these last few weeks I realized that even if I get dirty look from people who think I'm to fat to workout or whatever they think (I mean really why would you think like that?!) I find that I'm there for myself not them and I am there to loose weight. So screw them and their negative thoughts and feelings. I'm here to make myself better not to make them happy.
So that's all for now
Tootles,

Good Workout and PAINTS!

If you don't already know I'm an art student and always will be. But today I finally got my paints!! I have two canvases and some obscure colored painted but I went and got the "rainbow" colors and some glitter!! Yay!! I'm going to pain tonight maybe but when I finish it I'll scan it and show everyone!!
In other news I had a GREAT workout today but my eating.... sucked. It's like when I'm hungry and craving stuff it's like my mind goes blank. Lately I've been working towards fitting into this dress I own from my 8th grade graduation. It's really beautiful and timeless but I don't fit it. If I can't get the dress for my CDC then my goal will be to fir into that again.
I kicked ass with my workout today, I biked for 30-40 minutes then walked for another 20 then did my Bowflex for 10 minutes. That was good.
This is also my 100th post...
IDK WHAT TO DO!! I wish I could do a giveaway but I don't have anything and if I did I don't have the money to cover postage.
soooo.... OH
Does anyone want to get a picture done for them? I'm not too good with life like or animals but I can do some nifty stuff... I don't know if anyone would be interested but yeah that's all I can do lolololol.

Anywho Evanescence day 18

Your Star by Evanescence Fan Video

Tootles,

Christmas Dress, Old Shorts, and Art Tour

A very very good day today.
I woke up at like 10 or so, ate got dressed and there is where the first good thing happened. It was hot today (Thank got it's not in the 90s but for fall it was hot out) so I was looking for shorts. I couldn't find my shorts so I looked in this pile of sweatshirts. I found an old pair of shorts. I don't know what possessed me to put them on but I did. I wasn't even thinking. I just wanted shorts! These shorts haven't fit me in years. I haven't looked at the tag so I don't know what size they are. But it was an amazing feeling. No shimmying, no sucking in, no stuffing. Just sliding in and zipping up. It was amazing. I bounced around my room. I left the house feeling awesome. I also ate right and well that leads me to my next subject which is the Art Tour. All today we went around our town to different studios, talked to people, I had an assignment to interview three artists and take pictures. Well we went to about 6 different places one of them featuring around 10 artists by itself. In all we saw about 24 artists today. It was so much fun and it really solidified my decision of being an art student. I think, when you can't imagine why someone wouldn't want to do what you do, is when you know you are in the right place. I also finally have ideas for what I want for Christmas. Because of limited funds we have to put things on layaway now for Christmas that way we can HAVE a Christmas.
And that brings us to The Christmas Dress Update, with the shorts thing I think it's going really well. I mean I've at least dropped a size in shorts so how is the rest of me going? Plus my tops are looser so yeah good good.

And for day 8 and 9!! (Ya see what happens is I open up a new post and go to write and sometimes write a little something then close it and think I post it so whatev.)

This is Before the Dawn which is from Evanescence's first album I believe. Enjoy!!

This is Lies which is another from their first albums. These also aren't official videos either so yeah.

Tootles,

BowFlex Update and Celtic Fair

I have two pieces of news. The first is WE ARE GETTING THE BOWFLEX!! AND I LEARNED HOW TO SPELL IT! So yeah that's awesome. A completely new unused bowflex with the training dvd. All that for free from a friend (Who is totally fit anyways) who doesn't like looking at it in his bedroom anymore. For the most part right now I don't care what my mother thinks about it since mentioning it she went quiet and cranky. So Whatever I will use it. She wants to throw a hissy fit well then *talk to the hand* anywho I'm really excited for it, we're picking it up on Saturday so that is going to be the awesome hugh ass starting day or restarting day for it. Yes I'm moving the restarting date again.

Weight Watchers.... really?

One last think before I get onto more exciting news. A friend well really my Aunt she is so close to us, took this picture of a slice of Weight Watchers bread. So all of those who are on it and it works good for you but I think it's kind of a farce (I love that word!!) I mean this is just hilarious to me.

Anywho lets continue to the next bit of news, I'm going to the Celtic Festival!! I'm so very excited and the best part is I'm going to be dressing up! We bought some fabric today and we're going to work on it all tomorrow. I'll take some pictures after we buy the bodice on Friday since that's one thing we don't want to make ourselves, it's so hard to make one that we might as well leave it to the professionals.
So that's that. Good news all around. Hopefully some more good news later on this week.

Tootles,

                

Sorry Sorry Sorry!!

To all those who are visiting I probably just totally botched my first impression which is why I'm writing this sorry note. Weight loss is a pain in the ass but that doesn't give me the right to totally blow up. I have a tendency of exploding with anger, sadness, pain, happiness, and excitement without thinking before doing so. Writing and drawing is my main outlet for these emotions and sometimes I don't know when to hold back and when to let it out. So again I'm sorry for my cursing and bad attitude, it's so weird how a number on a scale can get me so pissed! And after thinking about it for a bit I realized that it really wasn't that much compared to all that I've lost. I just need to work twice as hard to loose this weight.
Once more I am sorry and I will be more positive and try not to blow up.

Bad Little Blogger

yeah.
Well anywho I was a bad girl yesterday and well most of the week, I drank soda!! Nooo!! Other then that I've been good. And I've started writing and drawing again, and I've gotten back into all of the schooliness. I'll be taking a college prep course and I need to do some research, other then that my math class for this year is "Personal Finance" so yay!! No stupid slow moving ickyness!!
So yeah just a little bit for now.

My New Freaking Awesomesauce Nerdy Poster

Yeah I bought a poster today.
And it's freaking GORGEOUS!!
Well to my nerdy little mind is.

I HAVE HAD A REVELATION!!

I WANT TO GO TO RENAISSANCE FAIRS!!! OMFG AND DRESS UP!!
So I also want to do anime cons but for right now with my area and being with my parents and their, well not disprovable just uncomfortableness with anime, and the fact that they also are into that kind of thing and I want to get sewing. It's all good!! And yay corsets!!!! OF course the last time we tried making a kind of corset we failed and it began to unclip and fall off. So this time I want to buy one or use my moms older one. I also want to make my own dress and get back into sewing. I'll start drawing up some designs and all and I'm excited now and I would love to throw myself into making the dress. I would maybe possibly like to do crafty jewelery which I've been wanting to do so.... this would really put everything together. Yeah that is something I just thought of and I'm really excited to pitch this idea to my mom.
I only have like a year left here in this state and in high school.... well maybe a year and half so I have to get my ass going.

Hope You Don't Mind That I Put Down in Words

How wonderful life is when I'm listening to Elton John.
Yeah corny I know.
Anywho another day is through and I am ready for an early (Well early to me) bed time. I'm an artist so naturally as is my species's culture I am to go to sleep really late working on something as inspiration strikes at midnight. But not tonight!! I'm breaking the trend!! Well trying to.
You see I've been breaking a lot of bad habits lately
Some of them include:
Nail Biting
Hair Plucking (yeah I know but it's been a while since I did that)
Late Bedtime
Laziness
Bossiness to my siblings.

SO yeah that's along with the diet and work out, so that's nice for me.
Time for good ol Elton to sing me to sleep.
Night all. 

Emotions

That's all I have for today.
I think I went through all of the stages of emotions when loosing weight.
I started with this morning waking up and doing Sun Salutations for getting the juices flowing.
Then I ate
Then I researched different yoga poses, then I took off my shirt to get ready for yoga.
I felt like crying at my image
I hated it
I wanted it gone with then and there.
Then I had lunch
I didn't want to do anything, no exercise no stretching
Then I got up, went for a 30 minute walk with the dog.
Got home did some Calisthenics
showered, ate.
and I felt refreshed and happy and energized
I felt like I was having fun and this was easy.
It was like I was totally bipolar with exercise today.
Now that I've been able to sit down and draw a little bit I feel much much better!!

My new character Lailani yaaay!!
Lailani (c) me